Beauty Tip of the Day

Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dgn jalan sabar dan mengerjakan
sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk.

Al-Baqarah 2:45


It happened though.


One fine day last week, I get a phone call. Believe it or not. The words did came out. On that one fine day. And me? *speechless*

SUddenly I'm lost between forcing and appealing. No no. Appealing is not the right word. Coaxing. Better. How to differ these two actions? And of course I'm not doing any coaxing because for me it seems like forcing. But actually it's not.

And yesterday, acting out like nothing happened, it hurts. And sooo awkward. Chances are there. But I ran away. I'm not that strong. Not yet. Escaping is what I choose. At least for yesterday.

And today, while my Zohor prayers, it rained tough. Finally. And, without any thoughts, this time defying my principal, I ran to Mummy crying in her arms. Just some, cries. And not a word of why. Haha. *suddenly felt stu*** thinking about it*

Yeah. I'm this strongggg!

Sometimes, it's so tired to act out strong. "Anak sulung kena kuat." "Awak kan kakak. Kena bagi semangat kat adik adik" Well, I'm a human. Hoping that there's someone saying, Alwani everything is going to be fine. But I guess, it's not the end of anything. Because, Everything is going to be okay in the end. At least that's what I believed in.

People let things go. But ALLAH always keeps EVERYTHING in His sight. EVERYTHING. It's not the feeling of being left for that hurts. It hurts more when people lose faith in you. Cause that's what holds me all this while. At least. And now, I lose it. Starting all over again is another chance. But when you doesn't have heart or at least you felt half hearted, you would doubt yourself. Can I do this again, In a better way? I'm afraid I won't. And it hurts people more. Than ever. *sigh*

Being quiet doesn't means that I neglected/forgotten you. It's just that I'm 100% sure that you'll be safe in HIS hands. ALLAH Ar-RAHMAN Ar-RAHIM.

Dream BIG. Even if you're just that small. Cause nothing is wrong with that. =P

Life's getting tougher. =)

1 comment:

Nazzrin said...

tabahkan hati.. kuatkan semangat akak.. nescaya setiap pekara yang berlaku ada hikmah nyer

You know what’s beautiful?

Your eyes blinking, your pupils dilating when you’re euphoric, the curve of your smile, the shade of your teeth, the arch of your back, the fingers typing, the breathing thing you do, the thoughts. Your thoughts. How you think is beautiful; how a thought comes to mind is…a miracle, how you operate, how you are; just you. In every sense of the word; all your blood cells, neurons, organs, your limbs, your soul. You are breathtaking, mashaa’Allaah.


You can’t control the things that happen to you but you can control the way you react to them. It’s all perception.
You Again (Movie)