Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dgn jalan sabar dan mengerjakan
sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk.

Al-Baqarah 2:45


Tired, stress.


Everything is just around the corner. Wedding, spm, lcci exam.

On my way back home last night after class, I get some strength. As during class, teachers, classmate were giving motivation. Kak fid herself was saying, although she's not taking the exam, "Alang2 dah pergi Exam, might as well aim for Distinction". Dapat cert attend part time LCCI class tu pun dah rasa sangat happy, my effort is worth it.

Few months left. And life can be back to normal, I hope. Things might change though as I'm already a wife by next year.

Seriously, sangat penat. Lately pukul 7+ baru nak balik rumah. Balik rumah makan tidur. If ada class, at 930 bru nk smpi rumah sebab pergi class straight from office.

Sabtu, the only day nak basuh baju, kemas bilik, cuci toilet, settle whatever stuff with mummy, jadi anak yang baik.

Sunday, class, settle whatever stuff with Mr F.

And the last thing I want to happen is arriving home tirelessly and have a quarrel with daddy.

Ya Allah, ku mohon urusan mudah.

I must finish what I have started.

May you have an awesome day


Mama hilang

Last weekend, I went for a course. 2 days course. My point here is not about the course. So for those 2 nights i don't sleep at home. Sunday morning, I stopped by the house to send a bag of cat's food. That morning, mama is still around. When I picked smallerfrom school on Monday evening, she told me Mama is lost. I thought, it will be only for a while. Maybe that night she'll come back. But no. She didn't. My concern is that, not that I feel lonely or what. The only thing is that, kesian Kawan. When Mama came here, she came alone. Then she got pregnant and don't know why, after some while, she took and hid her babies elsewhere, coming here only herself. Not long, she brought a friend, which I called Kawan. Smaller called her celat, like chocolate. Daddy used to use Coffee. Serious, manusia pun tak sebaik macam ni. Nanti akan makan sama sama. Share satu pinggan. Kat luar main sama sama. Bila dua dua ada dalam rumah, mama akan marah, gigit Kawan, sebab Mama dominant. Macam this is her territory. Tak lama lepas tu kalau letak makanan, dua dua akan makan sama sama. Macam no hard feelings.

And now, bila mama tiada, Kawan macam meroyan. Kalau masuk rumah dia akan pergi jalan satu rumah, naik sampai atas, i guess, searching for mama. Padahal, selama ni, paling jauh dia pergi is di carpet ruang tamu. Which is, 1 meter away from the door. Sedih. Ya Allah, kat mana Mama hilang. Berikanlah petunjukMu. Sedih tengok kawan macam ni.

You know what’s beautiful?

Your eyes blinking, your pupils dilating when you’re euphoric, the curve of your smile, the shade of your teeth, the arch of your back, the fingers typing, the breathing thing you do, the thoughts. Your thoughts. How you think is beautiful; how a thought comes to mind is…a miracle, how you operate, how you are; just you. In every sense of the word; all your blood cells, neurons, organs, your limbs, your soul. You are breathtaking, mashaa’Allaah.


You can’t control the things that happen to you but you can control the way you react to them. It’s all perception.
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