Mei 2007.

Mei 2007. That's the starting. Now Julai 2011. Kiralah dah berapa tahun. Kalau tu umur seorang kanak kanak, dah boleh masuk tadika dah. Last few months, my words made you cry. Or at least, that's what I thought. And today, I cried. Macam hati runtun baca kata kata itu. What happened? Mana boleh saya biarkan awak macam tu je.

Keluarga itu.

Salam.

I don't wanna be one. Anymore.

If you love something, set it free, kan?


Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal.

Rabu itu.

Salam.

Rabu itu, I kena marah kat KL Sentral. Dah lama tak kena marah gak ni. Ngan orang tu. Owh, Epa, U ketawa ea, I kena marah hari tu. I tak kisah. Ada junior I yang lain suka marah I juga. Dia kata, dia suka marah I sebab dia sayangkan I. Jadi, u alls, marahlah I banyak-banyak. At least I tahu u alls sayangkan I. Haha. Cam tak cukup kasih sayang je kan. cukup cukup. I dah dapat yang cukup. Haha. =P

Dalam happy happy rabu itu juga lah kan, I dapat 1 berita ni. Yang lama disimpan simpan dikepam kepam tapi tak taulah dah jadi pekasam ke belum. Tentang seorang sahabat ni. Yang tak boleh tahan nya, orang yang tak tahu pape tau dulu dari I. I orang ke3. Cis, murka I. Tapi takpe takpe. At least I tau jugalah kan. Akhirnyaaa, U gtau juga. U yang merangkap BFF I, sahabat, kakak, mother, semua semua lah kan. Moga U kuat. I tau U kuat. Tuf. Moga ALLAH beri kekuatan untuk U. Dan moga segalanya berjalan lancar untuk U. U tau kan I sayangkan U. =)

Suara.

Salam.

Kusangka panas hingga petang, rupa-rupanya hujan di tengahari.

Akhirnya orang itu bersuara juga. Xtau kenapa, hujan turun lagi. Kenapa aku LR? Apa perasaan? Kenapa tak share? =)

Nak cakap, nanti salah cakap. Maka, lebih baik diam. =)

Semoga segalanya akan berjalan lancar. Untuk masa-masa yang akan datang. Selamanya.

Maaf usaha ku tak nampak hasil langsung. Rasa useless kali ini. Tak ada pun takpe. Tapi tu lah. Nak datang jugak kan. Sibuk-sibuk. =)





Dalam mana-mana keadaan pun, kalau orang tu betul-betul kenal anda, dia akan faham setiap tindak-tanduk anda. *hands off*

Dan aku kena bersedia dari sekarang. Sedikit demi sedikit. Berani buat, berani tanggung walaupun berat sangat rasa hati. Hidup ini penuh dengan risiko. Alwani, redhalah.

PST 1011.

Salam.

Umum tahu yang I pergi ke KMNS selama lebih dari seminggu atas dasar nak membantu MSPB PST 1011. 

Serba-serbi dah diceritakan dalam post yang sebelum ni. Banyak yang nak dishare kan. Suka duka. Suka bila dapat bersama. Duka bila... emphhh! =)

Datang ke KMNS dengan perasaan yang sangat serabut. Masalah yang tak selesai-selesai. Dah berminggu-minggu, hinggalah hari ini. Emosi, jangan cakaplah, macam graf kosin, graf sin. Alangkah bagusnya kalau macam graf eksponen. Naik je tak turun-turun. lalala~

PST ni I lebih banyak simpan apa yang dirasakan. I bukanlah yang senang meluahkan bila melibatkan perasaan. Marah, kecewa, gembira, sayang. Tak mudah. Dan kali ini I Bertindak sorang-sorang. Silap. Tapi itu yang I mampu. Buat kepala sendiri. Tapi ada a few names yang I nak say thanks to. Especially Farah sebab jadi my p.a. dan rajin melayan I. sabar je dengan I. Adibah, yang rajin hantar message kata-kata semangat. Di saat2 I betul2 rasa nak putus asa. Tak lupa Aina dan Adik Iwan. Udean, sebab mendengar. Atie, Yufi, Azah sebab bertanya. Even I tak jawab soalan tu kan. =) Dan semua family fasi sebab terima I seadanya. Dan juga encik Sanchez kerana masih mengambil berat perihal diri saya.

Fasi kena fleksibel. Dan kali nii itulah yang I rasa. I dah merasa buat balik apa yang I suka buat masa Seseri dulu. Saat-saat I rasa sangat-sangat tak tenang. Dan harap-harap apa yang I dah buat balik ni akan jadi satu kegemaran untuk I sampai akhir hayat nanti. PST kali ini buat I rasa yakin semula buat perkara itu. Tak banyak pun takpe, at least sedikit. Dan perkara inilah yang buat I sangat-sangat rasa puas hati. Sebab I tercari-cari Alwani semasa Seseri, Matriks dulu yang dah lama hilang. Kisah gadis, kucing, aiskrim dan kuku yang lucu takkan dilupakan. =)

Terima kasih kepada yang jaga DSG pada malam bersama Alumni. Especially Pat dan Farah yang cam jadi p.a. I malam itu. =)

I betul2 tak boleh lupa saat2 buat gemuruh petang Khamis tu. Memang buat I rasa sangat sebak. Petang Jumaat, I realize something. BEtapa rindunya nak dengar ketawa Agon. Kelakar kan? =)

Pape pun, let be by gone. I tetap sayangkan mereka. I pun BANYAK buat silap kali ni. BANYAK. Maafkan I atas segala salah silap I. =)

Walau macamana sayang pun I pada family ni, satu hari nanti I kena lepaskan juga family ini. How I wish masa tu tak perlu sampai.

P/S: post ni emo semacam kan? Sorry sebab malam ni memang cam emo sikit. =)

Shah Alam tour~

Salam.


Tersebutlah kisah. Ada kawan I, Cik Epa ni datang menumpang rumah I. Seronok beb. Bukan selalu ada orang nak datang tidur umah kan. Masa kat Matriks tengah MPPB lagi I dok kira2 bilalah Ahad nak sampai. Sebab Kakak tu nak datang. Finally, lepas kambing balik jugalah dia sampai pada Ahad baru lepas ni.

Alkisahnya sebab, dia nak hantar resume kat Ampang dan Shah Alam. Ye lah orang dah habis belajar kan. Bukan macam I ni. Belajar tak habis-habis. Main-main je tau. =P Ok, tersebutlah kisah, pagi semalam Kakak tu tak jadi nak ke Ampang. Rasa cam jauh. So, turun s.a. jep. Kat s.a. tu, adalah adik beradik we all ni yang dah standby. Seb baik jugalah dia pun free. Dan dapatlah melayan kami2 ni. Thanks udean. =)

Daripada nak turun southern Rabu depan, tukar plan ke Khamis ni. Dak dua orang ni lah. Mentang2 dua2 orang jb kan... Goda2 cakap pergi pergi. Haish. Dahlah I jarang turun southern kan. So peluang ni susahlah nak tolak. Baru balik umah dari MPPB, ni nak kuar balik. Ahad depan baru balik umah. Anak dara ni kan...


Daripada nak anta resume je, kitorang merayau-rayau s.a. Terserempak kawan Si Udean tu time solat Zohor.
"Diorang ni fasi"

"Ni ada gathering ke?"
"Takdelah. saje kuar sama2. Kitorang memang rapat. Kamcing."


Kalau nak fikir balik, macam tak logik jep. Sebab... Camne awak tu matriks yang setahun jep tapi ada senior matriks. Well, uniknya family fasi KMNS. =) Ni, family I bertambah2 lagi.

Balik umah, semalam memang sangat lambatlah. Kambing pun dah tidur.

MPPB PST 1011 [1]

Salam. 

Tamatlah MPPB PST 1011 di KMNS.

Kalau rajin, akan adalah post khas untuk MPPB tu. Kalau tak, ni lah postnya. Tengok kesempatan masa ada ke tak.

I sekarang ni tengah kat rumah. Pagi ini dikelilingi family tercinta. Dengan suasana yang lebih tenang. =P

Compared to pagi semalam. Juga dikelilingi family. Yang tercinta. Fasi KMNS. yang sangat riuh. 

Lepas bbq semalam, pulang ke rumah. 

Kalau ikut plan dgn Fafau, nak balik naik komuter lepas bbq. Makan itu penting okeh~ Dah deal dengan adik2 bilik nak balik saing. Tapi somehow, plan berubah. Abg Man mo hantarkan. Tawaran yang sangat menarik dan tak dapat nak tolak. Last2 setuju juga. Thanks bro.

Around jam berapa tah, makin lama makin sikit fasi kat cafe tu. Sangat2 takle nak handle bila adik, n the boys nak gerak balik. Sebab sejak pdt 0709 kalau adik ada memang akan saing naik komuter dengan adik. Tapi kali ni tak. Sebak kot. Dah hujan sikit. Tapi tahan lagi. Tapi bila salam dengan farah, elly, terus burst into tears. Sebab awal2 tu janji nak balik dengan diorang kan. Dahlah kat bilik rapat dengan mereka dua ini. Emo. yes. Saya Emo kali ini. Elly cakap jangan nangis, lagi lah hujan. Tak pernah2 hujan depan orang, kali ni jadi cenggini lak. Ramai lak tu. Student pun nampak. Lantaklah. Sorry. tak dapat nak handle kali ini. Terlalu banyak yang jadi. However, para pensyarah puas hati dengan pengurusan kali ini. ALhamdulillah.

Fikirkan maybe ni tahun last jadi fasi. Ya ALLAH, camne lah nak lepaskan macam tu je family ni. SANGAT2 SAYANG ok! Dengan macam2 yang jadi, sama2 sokong masing2 membuatkan bond tu lebih erat. 

Sampaikan Awal2 tu Azah tanya, "akak ok tak? Napa kali ni akak tak seceria tahun lepas?" Masa kat cafe semalam pun Yufi tanya "akak ok ke tak? Sorry for everything. Kali ni akak memang nampak moody sikit. "

Dan dalam kereta ngan abg Man ngan Fafau, I burst into tears lagi. A long one. Banyak yang tak tercakap. 

Semalam masa berkumpul pun, bila sampai part ada fasi yang nak balik tu, memang dah nak hujan dah. Tapi bertakung jep.

Mungkin juga perasaan emo ni timbul sebab kali ni ku bertindak solo. Dan macam boleh nak bertegur sapa dengan semua orang. Baik dengan yang bertudung labuh, dan yang bertudung biasa, lelaki, perempuan, tua, muda. Dan cara penerimaan mereka terhadap diri ini sangatlah seadanya. Syukran. =)

Jumaat malam, ada adek ni message. Sebak.

Jika semalam, jalan yang kita tempuh terasa sukar,

namun kita berjaya jua melaluinya dengan pertolongan dariNYa...

Jika hari ini kita rasakan jalan hidup terlalu sukar diTempuhi, 

maka yakinlah ALLAH bersama2 kita ketika ini.

Jika esok, kita lihat lorong2jalan yang penuh duri,

percayalah pada ALLAH dengan pertolonganNYA yang akan tetap bersama-sama kita esok...

Moga ALAH permudahkan segalanya.

Dan kali ini, mood nak masuk gambar kurang. I bet, tak byk gambr ku. =P 

Malam semalam, sangatlah flat. Daddy ajak tengok ikan kat Majalah 3. Tapi tertidur. Last2 masuk bilik. Tidur macam taknak bangun. Plus MPPB kali ini, kaki ku beberapa kali kejang. Selasa, Khamis. Banyak sangat jalan2 nih. Mood makan pun beberapa kali hilang. Tapi esok dan esok dan esok mo jenjalan lagi. Dan hari ini sampai khamis ada tetamu. best best best~

Pape pun, Sayang kalian!!! SANGAT! xoxo~

Antara S dan NS.

Salam.

May is always my favourite month. Besides December. Because... In May the will be the orientation week for matriculation students. And since I graduated my matriculation in KMNS, i've been going back there each year to help(lah sgt kan) out with this orientation.

SOmehow, for me this orientation becomes complicated. A bit. There's this order where the elders are going to help out in Selangor Matriculation which is going to be their first batch this year. It might be a relief thinking that KMS is in Selangor so there's this mind set saying it might be nearer. Might. I don't know how near it might be.

Somehow, last week something else turn up. The name list for NS's faci is out. and my name is in it. When I heard that the not-young faci's must go serve at KMS, I felt kind of disappointed actually. Because I made myself this small promise. But somehow, I redha. And I went find some friends to help out in KMS also. But when the list came out. A small chaos happened. And I can't focus much in my exam. AGAIN. Because my name is at KMNS whereelse I invited my friends to go help out in KMS.

So, I redha again. KMNS pun KMNS lah kan. THen, there's this offer saying whoever wanted to go KMS, u can start giving details ASAP. THere it goes again. I gave my details. Yet, somehow our going to KMS is not confirmed yet. My big brother told me something that means this. "kalau wani nak berbakti, pergilah KMNS. Tapi kalau nak pertingkatkan diri ke, pergilah KMS. Tmpt baru."

Urm. Last night I have this short chat. Suppose that I went sleeping. Dah cakap goodnight kat orang lain. Tapi pergi tegur orang lain pula. Bual2. Sekarang saya bingung lak. "Kalau nak berbakti, pergilah KMNS". Ayat abang tu ulang2 dalam kepala. Dan bangun pagi ni tu yang terfikir. Sekarang, it's not about how fun it might be. But it's about how much you can give. And responsibilities. Kalau nak ikut kepala sendiri kan, memang akan pergi sana. Plus, Udean n boolat tak kisah ke mana2 pun. Tapi sebab ada ajak kwn2 kan... Urm................................................

Betul ke Kolej Matrikulasi Selangor dipanggil sebagai KMS? Sebab Kolej MARA Seremban pun KMS. Laaaaama dulu sampailah sekarang ni.

fasi KMNS. roger roger.

Salam.

korang... 

fc kmns batch 0607, 0506 dan ke atas, 

kalau korang sayangkan diri sendiri kan,

jom la jadi fasi laaaaaaagi. 

kali ni kat kolej matriks selangor. 

tak yah lalu bukit putus da. 

jom laaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

6hb-15hb mei 2010. 

jomlah tambah kenangan kita bersama. ♥ ♥ ♥ 

 

Sila beri details anda (nama, ic, alamat, course/universiti, no handphone, batch di KMNS) kepada Abg Bad di---> mr.msbadri@gmail.com

 

 

akmal+hazim.

Salam.

khas utk akmal(adik)+hazim.

happy burfday~

Moga pjg umur.
Murah rezeki.
happy always.
sihat selalu.
success sokmo.
konvo degree tahun 2011.
bahgia dunia akhirat.
dan... kahwin cepat. =)

Kisah hari ini. Kami sayangkan aida. =)

Salam.

Tengahari ini, saya dan bulat buat ini. Bulat start it first. Kami sygkan Aida. =)

cute kan? =)

IDK.

Salam.

These few days, I was sooooo happy. To have back my big family. Guess I missed them a lot. But then, May is just around the corner. It means that, there's going to be gatheringsss again.

Hey Mr Facebook. I don't know why you existed. Being able to communicate with that little fellow studying in the southern area makes me happy. It's not that I'm not being grateful with what I have currently, but knowing that I get more makes me happier. But. Somehow. I don't know why when it comes to this brother, I easily felt slighted. Is it the correct word? terkilan. I saw something. And the next thing I did is that, I untagged my name in one of my favourite pictures. I deactivated my account. And here I am.Blogging. Childish am I? Let me be.

And this past few days, boolat wrote something in his blog. About our big family. I'm speechless. Makes me love you even more my-big-but-little-brother.

I have a special exam on 10th of April. I hope that I'll pass. With flying colourful colours.

And Stochastic exam is on 14th April.

Dates. Dates.

A brother's wedding. So we gather up.

Salam,


This post is going to be in Malay+English. Harap Maaf. Kesulitan amat dikesali.

Yesterday, I went for a trip to attend a brother's wedding at Johol. I have this one big family. We are like brothers and sisters. If they don't feel like it, I don't mind. Coz they are like my brothers and sisters. =)

This trip had been planned like few weeks before. It's like a convoy. At first I'm thinking of having 2 cars to come from UKM. But something turn up. So, for dan's car is me and yufi from UKM and also fadzli. Even the convoy from JB is also 4 peeps with consist of abg bad, udean, adik, and also fat. And there's a abg saufi and tqa. And also abg afiq+abg genz+boolat+zaini from kl.


Firstly, many things happened during organizing who is going to go from ukm. Despite that, my bestie Aina cancelled last minute. It's kind a bad news for me yesterday morning. But it's better for her not to tag along rather than threatening her own health. But, when I know that adik is coming also, it's as if the black cloud had moved away. And I also see the sun shining allll the way. Happy. And also that bulat manage to tag along. Finally. And also dan tagging along. =)


We gather up at the petronas at bukit putus. Firstly, dan's car arrive. Then it's abg saufi. While we were waiting at the hut outside the mesra, tqa came. Ok. I know she likes to make surprises. But because of Abg Deris's wedding she's willing to come all the wayyy from Penang. Impressing. Yet, I'm surprised. I wondered who will come for my wedding. Wait. Will I get married? =P Then bulat called. Saying that he's going to arrive wayyy late. Because of the jam in seremban. And their car cannot move. On the road. Next to a white Vios. Suddenly I saw them walking out of a black Avanza, parked next to a white Vios. Just in front of the hut. Cute right? See, they like to make surprises. That's why I love them even more. And the JB group arrives late because of they-went-for-some-searchi

ng. I really loooooove gatherings and meet ups. Especially when it comes to this big family of mine.


Then we went for Johol. I always thought that Johol is not far away from Pilah. Thinking that Udean used to follow abg deris went back to his house at johol there riding a motorbike once a loong time ago. But then, it's farther than what I had been expecting. Arrived. Ate. Have some chit chat. Sakated abg deris. Took some pictures. Yay! I meet kakak face to face already. It's funny when one of us insisted of abg deris to introduce his wife and he went, "mana ea mana ea?" where else kakak is just at the table nearby. And meet up kak atie and also kak ckin there. =) Then we went hunting for sir's house. and bob followed to sir's house.


Served at sir's house was mee bandung and apam balik. haih. Mother told me few days back not to have mee bandung. Because of my face is getting worse. So I didn't. Then I took the apam balik. But. I forgot that in apam balik there's kacang tanah, haih. My bad. I really need to do a strict diet. Seriously. I want my face to be better.


Ok. Sometimes, having your loved ones in front of your eyes can be very heavenly heaven. Eventhough you don't talk much with them. That's what happened to me yesterday, =)


And I regret it that I didn't went out of the car while at Giant Ampangan waiting for sir to arrive. But thinking that if I went out of the car I won't see the act where adik came banging the back of dan's car, (he sometimes does like to act crazy) I felt like ada hikmahnya. So, I don't regret it much. Yet I still felt like regretting it. Haha. =)


After maghrib we all went back. And around 930 pm I arrived room. It's a short meeting up. But I'm happy with it. Can we do it againnn? Next? It's going to be on June. The end of June. KL.


Thank you ALLAH for giving me this big family. And also giving me the chance to meet them up for this gathering. I love my this big family soooooo much. I really hope that kami semua sentiasa dalam keredhaanMu. *shedding tears* And success with flying colours. Dunia dan akhirat. Dan kami sama-sama dapat berjumpa semula di syurgaMU, Ya ALLAH. Take all of them away and I'll be emotionless.


Haih. I guess I need to stop. There is so much to be said when it comes to fc kmns. Eventhough it's just a small matter.


Not forgotten, thanks to abg Deris, Sir and also Dan. And Yufi to still accompanying me eventhough suppose to handle a dinner last night. Sorry for sending you late. tak lupa. thanks to semuaaaaaa yang datang.


And to adik, I know you don't read my blog. But it's fine. =) InsyaALLAH adik akan grad dalam masa 4 tahun. Haih. mereka2 ni jahat betul. Cakap tu doa tau. Adik mestilah nak habis cepat2. Nanti boleh cari calon kawen cepat2 pula kan? Bulat cakap, batch korang, adik kena kawen dulu. Ikut tarikh lahir. Haih.. Tipu je bulat. Padahal dia lahir dulu. Dah 22 dah pun. And and and, Udean lak dah ada calon. Kan udean? Alololo... =P


Haih. I guess I need to stop. There is so much to be said when it comes to fc kmns. Eventhough it's just a small matter.


Till then, toodles~