Many times.

Many times, I get super upset with unkept promises. Many times, I gave another chance, telling myself that mana tau, kali ini dia akan tunaikan. I'm at the state of giving up on this r/ship. This statement will kill me. I know. But I cannot lie anymore. The spark isn't there anymore. The only thing that keeps me holding on is Aydan. Because the happiness in his eyes. At least, someone else is happy from my actions. At least.

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran

Teringin.

There is this few things yang kakla sangat sangat teringin. 

1. Iphone 7 128gb Rosegold. Sebab ofis uses IOS for pushmail. Android tak boleh. Hoping that dengan medium ni I can perform better. Boleh reply email on the go. Follow up incoming shipments. Takyah bukak lappy at home. Sebab anak dah dua kan. But risiko, I7 ni lagi fragile. Xperia z1 compact that I'm using ni jatuh banyak kali still ok. 

2. Beli yang bonet letak atas Myvi tu. I don't think buying a new Sedan will help me. Sebab nanti ada lagi loan baru bulan2. Lagipun only need bigger space bila travel je. Kalau setakat hari2, sekarang only me, Aysar and Aydan je. Ala klu sedan pun, letak dua car seat, takle org naik jugak. Sekarang target nak settlekan hutang credit card and rumah je. 

3. Habiskan Masters. Misi 2021. Masa tu Aysar dah 3 tahun. Nak sambung Masters lagi. And nak siapkan. Maybe PJJ. And xsure if Still nak buat Maths or not. See if ada Masters course yang beneficial utk kerja sekarang. Most probably statistics? Sebab need to learn forecast stuffs. Idk yet. InsyaAllah.

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran

Why?

If tak nak bawak Aydan go see Doc sebab jatuh tangga, why bother nak text msg pasal ubat and makan Aydan?

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran

Aydan jatuh tangga

Assalamualaikum 

At first abam was downstairs with him. Bagi makan. I'm still unsure if Aydan ada makan ke tak. Lama jugak. I'm upstairs dengan Aysar. Aysar tidur so I was looking for materials nak siapkan hw Aydan. 

Then like heard abg marah marah Aydan. "Awak tu demam..." He came upstairs tinggal Aydan nangis nangis jalan naik tangga. He came to me, ajak turun. So as I was following him. Kain batik terburai so berhenti kejap betulkan. Tak sempat nak stop him from walking down the stairs. So he did. He tripped his legs. It was so fast. Tak sempat nak catch kena kepala dulu ke roll dulu. I thinj he rolled first. And then kepala kena parquet tangga. Cepat cepat turun hug him. Check him. He cried. Tapi lepas tu dia macam OK ajak turun jugak pergi fridge. Nak amek Calciyum. I checked his legs and arms. Asking him sakit mana mana tak. Dia tak respond so mkst probably OK. Sebab if sakit normally he will tell. So pergi fridge amek Calciyum. He eats while walking, ajak dia naik atas. Naik together. I go picked Aysar yang tengah nangis dalam bilik. Abg tengah siap. And was telling he's going to Semenyih. Abg was insisting to bring us go Semenyih cause alasan nobody ada. I answered yang Semenyih pun bukan ada orang and he's not going to be around. Pergi jog la.  Ibu came late thinking he's around this morning. Asked him takyah bawak Aydan gi check ke sebab Aydan jatuh tangga. And banyak steps pulak tu. Like 4 5 steps. He said takyah. And I ajak Aydan makan depan TV. Sebab keeps tumpah. Abg salam Aydan and went out. Aydan tak habis his Calciyum and pushed it to me. He puts his head on the pillow and slept. That was when I become worried. And called ibu. Kitorang bawak Aydan g klinik. Doc says he looks OK. Monitor for 24 hrs. 

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran/

School.

Untuk Aysar, I found a bs. Ralat sebenarnya takde bajet untuk hantar Aysar kat tempat sama macam Aydan. Sebab I see banyak sangat advantage. Macam bila tengok teacher pengemas, OCD, in positive way, Aydan pun terikut. Aydan jadi jenis yang proper. Pandai main sendiri. Berani nak bagitau apa dia nak. Tak plan nak withdrawAydan from school and hantar BS sebab Aydan dah school kan. Nanti hantar BS kesian pulak dia bosan ke apa. Lagipun member dah ada kawan2 kan. 

Taktau nak expect apa nanti. 

But Target tahun ni rating bagus lagi supaya gaji naik. Thn lps company doing well pun naik 4% je. Kemut betul. 

Next year nak cari tempat yang ada school jugak untuk adik. Xtau la taska/tadika Semenyih ada option apa kan. 

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran