Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dgn jalan sabar dan mengerjakan
sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk.

Al-Baqarah 2:45


Almost end.


It had been quite a while I didn't write in here. I hope that everyone is doing good. It's month end and also, year end. Thus, it's the account closing for companies, including the one that I'm working with.

Life? I quit-ted from my weekend part time job. Why? Personally, I don't feel comfortable working there. Teaching is one of my passion. Where that's one platform for me to share my knowledge/experience. But somehow, working there, I feel fake. I don't feel like I'm being myself. My bad. And, mostly, I felt guilty with Mommy. I know, Mommy never said anything. And even, Mommy supports me when I told her about my plans. Especially when thinking that it's an add-on for me. It's just that somehow, I felt sooo disorganized. Additionally, with Mommy's health currently, I think it's better to have two weekdays. One for outing. One for staying at home. At least. I believe that, if we try to make our parents happy, somehow, we can feel the tranquility. And yes, 2 weeks after I quit, I felt better. 

Need to find some other ways to save money I guess. I hope, I really really hoped that, everything will go smoothly, the way I planned. Or if it's not as I planned, I hope that I'll be strong enough to stand still. 

And, may kakak gets better soon. Feel bad knowing that she had an accident that almost killed herself yesterday. I bet she's traumatized. For every kindness we make, ALLAH will reward us in any ways. 
Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.  

 "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have."  


Dilemma (2)


I guess what I said about the topic "dilemma" makes people think and judge wrongly. I'm sorry. Btw, thanks for the suggestion. I will consider it.



Guy : handsome tak pengapit lelaki tadi?
Girl : tak.
Guy : kenapa cakap tak handsome?
Girl : entah. Not my taste.
Guy : your taste macamana?
Girl : *diam* pergilah tengok cermin.

You know what’s beautiful?

Your eyes blinking, your pupils dilating when you’re euphoric, the curve of your smile, the shade of your teeth, the arch of your back, the fingers typing, the breathing thing you do, the thoughts. Your thoughts. How you think is beautiful; how a thought comes to mind is…a miracle, how you operate, how you are; just you. In every sense of the word; all your blood cells, neurons, organs, your limbs, your soul. You are breathtaking, mashaa’Allaah.


You can’t control the things that happen to you but you can control the way you react to them. It’s all perception.
You Again (Movie)