Doc comel pesan, "banyakkan bersabar"

Salam. This blog becomes personal.

Yeaterday, I had an appointment with this cute little doctor. Okay, she'd grown up already. So we met up. At mv. As that's an easy place to reach by public transportation. And I don't feel like driving there though. Jarang pergi so bila nak pergi sorang nak pergi parking lot keluar parking lot balik runah semua rasa kurang confident.

It's a short meeting with Dr Noriz. Rasa kejap je dia dah doktor padahal 6 years lah juga kan. A short but it was... I can say, worth it. Kalau boleh nak lagi lama because we need to do so much of catching up.

Dalam dua minggu ni kan, perasaan itu datang. Bila kita keluar jumpa some people yang knows us by heart, yang kita tahu kita akan rasa safe with walaupun jarang hang out. Macam last Thursday, had a lunch with atie, udean and taufiq. Dapat jumpa atie kejap je. And it made me realized how time had passed and people had changed. For a better one though. And it's a good one. Atie was asking us,"kak wani bila nak kahwin?" "tunggu atie grad" "abg udean bila nak kahwin?" "tunggu wani kahwin" "so... Atie kena grad next year bulan 9 kalau tak kitorang takle kahwin. Hihi" i dunno if atie feel stressed or what with our answers but we would be more than happy seeing our younger brothers and sisters graduating. Err or only i'm tge one feeling that way? All the best cik izzati, jgn nakal2 sgt ya.

Berbalik with doc comel. So we had our conversation. Seronok. Sebab Noriz adalah antara bestbuddies masa Seseti dulu. Dalam PRS paling rapat dengan dia. Satu kelas Cattleya masa form 4 UNtil early form 5. Then masa dorm Brassi Puteri, she's my bedmate. Bangun pagi siap siap nanti kejut dia. Gaduh, merajuk,buat perangai degil semua dia tahu. Dan sangat penyabar. Tapi dia lagi glamor of course. Oh, dia sangat rajin mengemas. Selalu kena jadi ajk kebersihan keceriaan hihi.

Doc pesan banyak. Make sure follow up dengan doktor pakar. Kesihatan penting. InsyaAllah ada rezeki tu nanti. Banyakkan bersabar, jangan merajuk sangat. Habiskan baca Men from Mars Women from Venus cause that's how i'll understand him more. Jangan stress sangat. Buat sikit sikit. Everything will be fine.

Tiba tiba rindu zaman sekolah. I really hope to be at her important day mid jan nanti. Harap harap sangat.

Thanks!

May you have a great day~

Daydream

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan majlisku nanti. Jauhkanlah kami dari sifat membazir. Janganlah Kau biarkan kami meninggalkan agamamu kerana ingin redha manusia. Ya Allah, ku mohon padamu hati yang kuat mempertahankan agamamu ya Allah. Berikanlah kami petunjuk untuk jalan yang lurus. KU harap syurga dunia yang kau pinjamkan ini, turut sama bersamaku di syurga akhiratmu nanti, Ya Allah. Ya Allah yang Maha Pengasih, kasihanilah ibu bapaku sebagaimana mereka mengasihaniku sejak dari kecil.

2012-11-11

11.11.12

alhamdulillah. :)

11.11.12 & 12.11.12

Salam.
11.11.12, bafa & family came to our house. 1st step done. Preparing myself for next steps. Engagement, wedding, etc. I cooked fruit pudding. But it's lack of water so it turned out a bit dry. However, watching brother yusuf eating the pudding, i felt touched. Hihi.

12.11.12.
Father's birthday. I treated la familia for dinner as almost everyone is at home. Nothing special because father once said, "my father don't teach me to celebrate birthdays so I don't celebrate". But as usual, there's always some food. Daddy, happy half century. I love you for my almost quarter century. Thank you and sorry for everything. <3

have a nice day !
Noruaruwani

SVT

Salam.

Today mummy went to the cardiologist for further check-up. She was diagnosed as SVT. I'm not so sure of what it is as the explanation are full with medical terms. But what I manage to understand is that a condition where the heart pumps the blood way frequent than usual. A reason why the doctor at the panel clinic couldn't find her blood pressure. It's kind of electric electric stuff that happens. Still trying to understand the terms. My biology is bad. What I know is that... It can be very unpleasant but most SVTs are not life threatening. Also, it can last for two days until it there's treatment or, it will disappear just like that. But there's some chances that it might happen again.

May you have a great day~

Noruaruwani

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Kakla belum sedia lagi

Salam.

Today, mummy is still sick. It last for few days. What we had in mind is that it's the normal sickness. Migraine, wind.

When I arrived home from work, aisyah told me that father brought mummy to the clinic. Then, they came back and prepared to go to the hospital for further check-up.

I was worried. What I had in mind was, "semoga selamat pergi, selamat kembali. Ibu, kakla tak sedia lagi nak pikul tugas ganti ibu." and this time around is when i hoped so badly that mummy are going to witness my wedding. Also i keep blaming iyah, because of her, i can't get married yet.

Mummy keep saying this one while ago. "kakla is the strong one."

mummy i love you but i dunno how to show it. Saying isn't enough.

May you have a great day~

Noruaruwani.

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50's ladies

Salam.

It was 16th September 2012; a very fantastic day. Happy birthday iyah. You're an evil sister-bullying me. Well, urm, that was the day where I'm doing my favor to pick her up at Pullman when she's done with her KB 75. Not so sure whether I'm delighted or not, but having my sisters tagging along, we sure had some fun all our way there from home. And it's nice having sisters that are gladly enough just to follow my lead.

The KB75 programme was scheduled to end by 12 noon that Sunday. So we girls went out of house around 11. Drived thru mcd Seri Kembangan(not mistaken-if it's wrong, sorry!) to get ourselves an ice-cream each and a burger for Aisyah. Arrived pullman area, quarter by 12.

The best part was, I'm not familiar with Putrajaya and there's these roads surrounding Pullman. And wondered, where does these roads lead? Followed a car in front of us as, "If the car goes there, maybe there's a place reachable... But where?" So... it actually leads to the other side of Pullman Lakeside. And the front car, well, the passengers are well dressed for a wedding photoshoot!

As we brought our own food; ice-cream, burger, we had our picnic and some photoshoots. The scenery was... amazingly fantastic! SUBHANALLAH.

And finally, mummy are done. Picked up mummy and friends at Pullman and voila! Off we go! And I was definitely being very careful driving these ladies at my backseat. Luckily, they were busy chatting, gossiping at the back and I have one of my best co-pilot with me that noon. Amirah!

You know, although they're half a century, but when they hang out with their colleague that day, they're still like those excited kids. Chatting and all. And the feeling, it's undescribeable. When with those small things that you have, you can still make other people happy. I still remember how excited mummy was that day. Sharing her stories about the programme with us. Glad that I get my chance to chaffeur her around.

P/s : i know it was fun following biggest sister around. The most exciting part is that, when you're hungry, she'll buy food. So, you'll save your cents. The only thing is that, I don't have neither a biggest sister nor brother. So, uhm. You know. :)

Toodles!

May you have a great day~

Noruaruwani

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away.

-away-


May you have a great day~

Almost one year present.

My present for him during our almost one year anniversary. Sobs. Heart breaks </3

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Thanks!

May you have a great day~

Nor Alwani

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which is which?

Salam.
 
How's imaaann? I hope it's in good condition.
 
Last few years, my seniors is having this one prob. TO identify, who is from which batch. Who is in the same batch with whom. Now, I'm having this kind of problem also. Maybe, it's normal when it's comes to a big alumni organization? :)
 


 

May you have a great day~

Kem Bina Insan Tenggaroh 6,4, & 2 masuk akhbar lagi~

Salam.

Kem Bina Insan Tenggaroh 6,4, & 2 masuk akhbar lagi~
Kali ini, harian metro pula. Ada typo di situ ya. Persatuan Alumni Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan (PAKMNS)

http://www.hmetro.com.my/articles/Bentukpelajarcemerlang/Article/

Bentuk pelajar cemerlang

Oleh Mohd Sah Muda
rencana@hmetro.com.my

     

SERAMAI 90 pelajar tahun enam di tiga sekolah Felda Gugusan Tenggaroh, Mersing, Johor yakin mencapai 5A dalam Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah (UPSR) tahun ini.
Azam itu kian membara apabila mereka selesai mengikuti Kem Bina Insan UPSR 2012, di SK Felda Tenggaroh 06, baru-baru ini.
Kem tiga hari itu, anjuran bersama Majlis Pemuafakatan Ibu Bapa Pelajar SKTenggaroh 06, dikelolakan Alumi Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan serta disertai pelajar SK Tenggaroh 06, SK Tenggaroh 04 dan SK Tenggaroh 02.

Pengarah kem, Haryanti Mohd Affandi, berkata kem itu bagi membantu memperlengkap dan mempersiapkan mental pelajar menghadapi UPSR selain membentuk jati diri dan identiti pelajar cemerlang.

Menurutnya, ia juga menjadi pemangkin bagi membina semangat memperoleh kecemerlangan di samping mengutip pengalaman melalui aktiviti bersepadu.

“Program ini sangat menitikberatkan penguasaan kemahiran selain membina berkomunikasi berkesan. Sebagai pelajar, aspek ini sangat penting membantu mereka berani bertanyakan soalan kepada guru.

“Mengikut pemerhatian kami, mereka belum pernah terbabit secara rasmi dalam aktiviti berbentuk motivasi kecemerlangan secara bersepadu dan ini peluang yang tidak boleh dilepaskan,” katanya.

Antara aktiviti diadakan sepanjang program termasuk Latihan Dalam Kumpulan (LDK), solat berjemaah, ceramah motivasi dan persembahan kebudayaan.

Seorang pelajar, Mohd Hazim Mohd Zain, 12, berkata dia gembira dapat menyertai kem berkenaan kerana memperoleh banyak panduan baru yang boleh membantunya memperoleh 5A.

“Saya berazam mencapai keputusan cemerlang untuk dihadiahkan kepada keluarga.
Program ini banyak memberi panduan selain melonjakkan lagi semangat saya untuk belajar bersungguh-sungguh.

“Selain itu saya gembira kerana dapat berjumpa rakan baru. Kami boleh berkongsi pendapat dan menjalinkan hubungan mesra.

“Malah, kami juga saling memberi sokongan supaya masing-masing dapat merealisasikan impian memperoleh keputusan membanggakan,” katanya.

Artikel ini disiarkan pada : 2012/07/29

 

 Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal.


 

Unforgettable

Salam.

I thought that, last year was my final year, my last straw to participate in PAKMNS's activities. Somehow, I guess, I still love this community. A society where I feel belong to. True, I tried to distract my thoughts to help Seserians instead. When it comes to Selero!, I'm overwhelmed, thrilled, excited as it's one moment where I and others can try to help Seserian students perform & achieve better than us. During My time, I don't have seniors coming to school, organizing programmes for us. Catch : my batch is pioneer.

I feel left out when I'm with Sagacious. I'm outdated, no friends.

It's just that, there is a personal reason for me to apart myself from Pakmns. To let go off one thing I love? No matter what, PAKMNS will always be in my heart. I don't regret going to KMNS on 2005. Cause that's where I get life, LOVE, knowledge, experience and above all, that's where I get a BIG FAMILY.


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Alhamdulillah

Thank you ALLAH.
Dalam kenakalanku, ALLAH Bagi banyak sangat peluang untuk buat kebaikan melalui insan sekeliling. Rasa terharu, nak nangis. Dalam rasa sedih nak tinggalkan Tenggaroh beberapa minggu lepas, buka bönet kereta, nampak buku Kimia. Perjuangan harus diteruskan!

Tak mudah, namun tak mustahil. InsyaALLAH.

Belum ada peluang nak cerita tentang Tenggaroh lagi...

Selamat menunaikan ibadah di bulan Ramadhan.


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15 julai 2012

Kem bina Insan 2012
13 - 15 julai 2012

Happy birthday tomorrow my dear !
May Allah bless you and your loved ones.
And may your life is full with happiness till in Firdaus :)

Program for ex-KMNS

Salam.

This is a short one. There will be a programme for ex-KMNS students. It is named as 'Certified Facilitators Training Program'. It is going to be held on 14th & 15th of July 2012. Any ex-KMNS that are interested to join, feel free to do so. Me? Most probably I'll be going.

Details. <----details, click here

See ya!

P/S : I'm not the organizer. Just helping to spread out the words.

Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal.

 

Shining light

Salam,

This bore-some is killing me ! 

I dreamed of Zaira last night. And everytime I dreamed of her, it was like, I was avoiding her. Been some while since we last chatted. Things changes. I become more and more sensitive, starting to avoid almost everyone. Why? I don't know. Maybe, I don't wanna add up problems so I started to avoid peeps around me. And in that dream, there were other Sagacious girls also. It's just that, I'm avoiding them also. There was this one moment, I was crossing the street from Carefour to Subang Avenue. And Zaira saw me. And I walked so fast also, acted like I didn't realize that she's chasing me. 

Idk. Strange, huh ? 

 

Yours sincerely,
NoruAruwani.

 

Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.  

 "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have."  

Saya ada iklan kerja dan saya gembira sebab encik nelayan dah balik

 Assalamualaikum.

How's life peeps? How's health? How's imaann? I'm good. 

Hoping that today will be a better dayyy.

Brought guava and grapes for snacking at work today. Also some of mummy's pancakes for lunch. Hopefully, today I won't end up eating rice for lunch today. The fisherman is back. Afterwards, he'll be asking about my daily diet. At least, yesterday, he's not reachable and I get to free flow.  Laughs.

And... boss isn't around. But ALLAH knows. Always. SO, behave, Noru. Behave. 

Btw, anybody interested in being a Customer Service at the company I'm working with? Located in PJ-Ara Damansara. Must have a good English (written and verbal). Any degree will do. Must be a firm person as you'll need to deal with the Business Unit, warehouse and of course, customers. (garang & tegas) Benefits : You'll get to see me 9 hours a day, 5 days a week until you get bored. Okay. Kidding. Any queries, do comment, or email me at nor_alwani@yahoo.com

Yours sincerely,
NoruAruwani.

 

Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.  

 "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have."  

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

 Serious. bosan. 

Yours sincerely,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran.

 

Bagai tiada kerja.

Salam.

KU bagai tiada kerja tatkala ini. Namun, kertas kertas membuat timbunan yang tingginya kalah dengan botol bersaiz 1 Liter menjerit jerit memanggil namaku agar disusun dengan indah. Ah! Ku cuba untuk mengabaikan panggilan itu. Namun... Tidak berjaya. Kasihan kertas kertas itu. 

Apparently, after some discussions, we(me and management) have decided that I'll be teaching Chemistry. Especially when I'd been preparing for this subject ever since. I mean, getting the materials ready for myself. Been quite a while I didn't learn Chemistry. But I can do this! Go girl~ And I saw, that Aina herself is starting her studies again. All the best, Aina. 

Last few days, I get a text from one of my students when I become an Instructor PermataPintar Negara School Holiday Camp 2010. Sweet! Hope that they are doing well whenever they are. Especially when I heard some complaints on how tough Form 4 subjects are. 

And, all the best for those who are taking exams some time just around the corner. I believe, it's exam season right now since it's towards the end of semester. 

Also, mabrouk for fellow friends on your weddings, coming weddings, engagements, also, your new born baby/soon-to-be born baby(s). May all of us have a blessful life, now and always. 

I'm learning to stay positive any way somehow. I over think things sometimes. And when it happens, I know that I'm lucky to have people with patience surrounding me. Thank you Allah for your bless. 

 

Yours sincerely,
Noraruwani.

 

Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.  

 "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have."  

Sains atau Kimia atau Maths?

 Salam.

Semalam, saya ada pergi meeting sebagai pengajar untuk satu program tuisyen di masjid kawasan rumah. Perbincangan awal dengan management, sebab dah ada orang untuk ajar Maths, management tanya, subjek apa yang saya boleh ajar. Fikir fikir balik, Kimia kot. Sebab masa SPM dan Matriks, Kimia ok je. Masa degree, ada lah masa first year belajar kimia kan. Subjek Sains Fizis kot. Tak ingat. hehe. 

Bila meeting tu, masing masing, kena perkenalkan diri, bagitahu subjek apa boleh ajar. And ada kena isi borang lah kan. Last last, buat macam discussion and list out kat white board, tengok subjek yang dioffer, siapa yang boleh ajar. Ceritanya, nama saya kena tulis kat Sains PMR, Kimia SPM dan Maths SPM. Ok. Atas persetujuan diri sendiri juga lah kan. Ada one guy ni, dia memang mengajar Maths. SO, nama dia dah letak untuk Maths PMR and Add Maths SPM. Dilemanya, am I capable nak ajar 3 subjek ni? Kakak tanya, nak ke bagi subjek Maths tu kat guy tu. Berat hati nak lepas subjek Maths SPM ni. Alasan, yelah, Maths kot? Kira kurang heavy dari Add Maths.

Lagipun, Maths fav subjek kan. Haha. Tamak. Macam risau juga dengan Kimia dan Sains ni. Sebab dua dua kena baca kan. Dah terbayang bayang gambarajah telinga, mata yang kena hafal masa PMR dulu. It's just that, nak let go Kimia pun cam berat hati. Sebab, dari awal dah letak mind set akan kena ajar Kimia. Dah siap beli buku rujukan semua dah. Tinggal bateri untuk kalkulator je belum. Hehe. 

Susah kan kalau tak tau potensi diri sendiri?

 "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have."  

Face it or run?

Sorry. I don't face my problems, I run away from it. - me.

Terasa hati dengan orang, I avoid them, I go to bed. The next day, it's a new day and I don't wanna think about what happened.

Suddenly, I become negative. I'm stressed out again. I gained weight. I hate this, everything.

Bye.

Bye.

I don't wanna get myself involved in alumni SESERI anymore.
Org lain nak buat, baik bagi org lain buat, kan? Lagipun, I ni kerani je. Belajar Maths je. Mana ada belajar tere tere medic lah, farmasi lah. Kerja pun, bukan kerja business exec apa apa tah. SPM pun bukan straight A's. Masuk matriks je. Tak de masuk U tere tere cam orang lain. Buat Masters pun separuh jalan. Kalau cakap pun, orang tak dengar. Tak pandai bagi talk. Orang xsemangat bila dgr kita cakap kan.
Bye.

Rindu nak berprogram.

Might as well I work hard to study my chemistry instead. Tu lagi penting. Kena dapatkan A+.

Takpun, buat biskut je kan. Ok biskut coklat dah habis. Nak lagi.

I will try.

Salam.

Mummy, do you know how much I actually love you? It's kept inside. Malu nak tunjuk. Sebab kakla is kakla. Bukan iyah.

Last weekend, I really hoped that you are happy. I don't do much. But I really hoped so. Sampai ibu ada very enormous butterfly in the stomach kan? Mulut kakla bebel bebel kan? Ish. Camnela nak kasi mulut ni tak bebel, tak muncung ikat reben, mata tak jeling. Konon konon nak biar ibu gi sorang, biar ibu naik Komuter. Ibu tahu kan kakla sakat je? Hehe. Last last buat jugak. Sebab tak sampai hati. *nanti orang ngorat ibu. Haha* Risau tu sedikit sebanyak ada. Tak banyak, sikit. Tak sikit, banyak. Kurang pahala dah kan, sebab bebel bebel tu. Harap ibu tak ambil hati. Tapi, satu yang tak berubah, tetap sama, I still hate KL. Masih scary. Masih perlukan bodyguard. Way no nak kakla jalan sorang sorang kat jalan situ.

Penat. Tapi happy sebab tengok ibu happy. Cuma kakla belum mampu nak buat macam ibu buat. Cakap cakap kat orang, cerita cerita. Mungkin, bila terpaksa, kena buat juga kan. Fahmi marah. Dia kata, 'tolonglah ibu tu. Kesian ibu. Marketing tu ilmu. Sedih bila you kata you tak suka.' Mestilah dia marah. Sebab itu benda yang hampir sama yang dia buat. Bila fikir fikir balik, teringat kak ani cakap, 'ibu tu baik sangat. Kakla bertuah tau' sebab kak ani tak baik dengan ibu dia. Fahmi pula, 'jaga ibu leklok. Hargai ibu tu' sebab fahmi dah tiada ibu. *tiba tiba sebak. Ish.*

Kakla tak suka. Tapi kakla cuba untuk suka. Kakla suka tolong susun, tolong organize barang, details. Tapi bab cakap, promote promote niiiiii, lemah betul. Mungkin, kalau mood ada, harap harap for next time, mood untuk bercakap cakap tu adalah kan. Macam masa 2 3 tahun lepas. Cuma, jangan suruh kakla suka KL, okay? Love you mummy ! ;D

p/s : byk betul 'tapi' kan?

Rasa benci.

Salam.
I dunno why. But lately, the hatred feeling is within me. Rasa benci, menyampah, those bad feelings. Those negative ones. Hates this.
Rasa marah. Tapi bila marah, macam kita marahkan Allah, rasa tak redha. Macam, kenapa orang tu happy tapi dia buat jahat kat orang yang kita sayang, yang kita rapat?

Suddenly macam, it's all coming back.

Saya mula mengungkit, persoalkan.

Dulu, masa sesak sangat, takde alternatif, minta tolong bawa ke tempat nak sign agreement. Tapi you taknak tolong. Alasan, jam. Last last I end up pergi naik teksi, balik ofis, ibu hantarkan. Good thing? You takde so I tak payah dengar you merungut-rungut.

Then, bila dapat balak tu, lama baru I get the license to drive myself. Masa first day bawa, you dah sibuk tanya, boleh tumpang tak, buat cerita sedih sebab taknak tunggu sampai your sister balik at 7. I kesian, then bagi you tumpang. Lalu Sunway, good for me lah kan. First day drive, dah kena bawak gi SUnway, I dah nak langgar pakcik bawak anak atas motor tu. And you, buat I lagi panik. Good thing? I learned to use the left side mirror and more alert on motorcyclist.

Esok pagi, you tumpang gi kerja, tiba tiba buat I terkejut cakap kena U-Turn, then I salah press minyak instead of brek, langgar curb U-Turn tu. Then my bumper scratch, clip tercabut. Padahal bumper tu baru cat baru. T_T  Just because nak beli you breakfast. Tapi pergi juga beli sebab kesian you lapar and, dah pergi half way sampai balak I calar, pastu tak jadi nak beli dah? Good thing? I dah ada alternatif lain for breakfast and lunch instead of buying Petronas food sebab malas nak keluar time lunch.

Then bila naik balak, you kutuk2 Malaysian car. Apa you tak sedar balak yang you naik tu Malaysian car? "I hate Malaysian car." Thank you sebab sudi nak naik my Malaysian car tu for few weeks. Good thing? I felt annoyed with you and I stopped helping to send you home since then. Haha. Jahat jugak aku ni.

Lunch time, kalau kakak takde, kakak taknak keluar, kakak tak datang, baru you cari I kan. Now dah ada kakak lain, memang harapan lah you nak tegur I. Haha lagi.

Macam dendam je kan? Haha Lagi dan lagi. okay dah macam tak betul.

Bila fikir balik, ada good things in everything that happened. Just, kadang rasa tak sabar juga nak say goodbye. hehe. "Kak Maz was saying, baru sedikit dah nak mengalah?" There are times that I don't give up easily. But when I'm not sincere, I might give up.

Bila mula persoalkan apa yang dah ditentukan, ada unsur derhaka dalam diri. Tolonglah, go away this feeling.

[ reminder 1 ]

:) hati2 always ye,jgn tension2 ye u keep smiling everyday what ever problem come to u :)

Can I be honest?

Salam.

Lately, I am trying hard to calm myself. So that I don't overthink. Cause I'll end up stressed, depressed, moody and such. Had too many things in my mind. 

Work.

A colleague is resigning. My concern is that, when she's going out another 2 weeks, I'm the one who needs to take over her work. And I'm praying hard that her replacement is going to be in soon. I guess, I need to reconfirm with boss, right? 

I enjoyed the work. I'm multitasking. So I don't get bored easily. The environment is OK. People are friendly. It's just that, I'm having an issue with a colleague. I cannot get along with her. I feel like being used. When kakak is not around, she'll find me. Spare part. I dunno. Maybe I'm the type that, you mess with me, I don't like you anymore. Especially after an incident last few months. Trying hard to forget the incident, though. 

Gym.
End of last year, I joined a gym. As time goes by, I felt like it was a waste. At first, I was thinking that, if I pay something, OF COURSE I will utilize my money. After two months, I realized that I'm wrong instead. I end up using some money that I reserved for emergencies. I don't have time to spend at the gym. I need to be at home by dark. If not, it will be dangerous especially when lately there are robberies happening at my housing area. But if I terminate my contract I need to pay penalty. 

Health.

Being stressed out makes me stay in bed longer. I easily doze off at night. Sometimes, by 2100 hours, the only thing that I have in my mind is BED. I easily get tired. Accompanying dear brother at a grocery store for just 1 hour and I'm being grumpy already. Normally, it's not a big problem for me. Now, my neck and shoulder aches. *surveying for a nice price for spa*

Eating habits.

At work, during lunch I ate biscuits with coffee/Milo. Thus, when I arrived home after work, I was starving. And I end up eating a lot. I guess, that's why I doze of easily at night? There are some times, I went to bed without having dinner. Not a good habit either. 

Relationships.

I don't bother on what's happening to people around me anymore. I focused more on my family and myself instead. I used to care so much those days. 

May you have a great day~

Yours sincerely,

Noru Aruwani

Dia interview, Saya excited.

Salam.

A friend of mine is going to have an interview at 10 am today. In KL. I'm very excited and nervous for her. 

Hopes that everything goes well for her. Nanti taklah dia jadi kurus sangat sebab susah hati punya pasal. *macam tak puas hati orang yang kurus makin kurus. haha*

May you have a great day~

Yours sincerely,

Noru Aruwani

Nak kahwin jugak, boleh?

Salam.

Me : minggu ni kakla ada kahwin.
Ibu : lately ramai betul kawan kakla kahwin.
Me : haah. Ni, kawan yanti ni pun akhir tahun ni kot. Dia dah tunang. *sambil tunjuk yanti*
*perbualan lepas maghrib semasa yanti datang tidur di rumah hujung minggu pertama mac 2012.

Musim kan. Umur pun nak cecah 25 tahun akhir tahun masihi 2012. Kalau ikut tahun, memang saya dah 25 dah. Bila tengok gambar kenalan yang dah sampai ke alam puan, ibu, mama, mummy, rasa cemburu menjengah. Apatah lagi, bila ada yang berpangkat adik adik pun turut menyusul. Kalau betul ada pertalian darah, 'langkah bendul' kata orang.

Teringin juga. Tapi... Saya tak tahu jika saya sudah bersedia. Bila dah tamat baca buku 'aku terima nikahnya', terasa alam rumah tangga itu bukan honeymoon semata mata. Malah, ia penuh dengan tanggungjawab. Tanggungjawab agar bahtera, dan anak kapal bahtera itu tidak karam dan hanyut dibawa ombak laut. Tambah pula, perlu bersedia dari segi iman, emosi, mental, fizikal dan salah satu entiti yang penting, wang.

Bila tiba masanya, saya akan menyusul jua. Bila? Dia Maha Mengetahui. ;)

p/s : kagum dengan ibu.

Selamat pulang ke MEDAN untuk perjuangan!

Salam.
Last few weeks, he told me that he's coming back to Malaysia to settle up his visa. I was soooo thrilled waiting for the date, for his comeback. Since he's telling me that he'll be somewhere around KL during that period. And it means that, maybe, maybe we can hang out. Me, him, kakak, or anybody that's available.

However, as the time comes, I feel like I couldn't make it. I was tied up with commitments and promises with my family members. And Wak. I need to chaffeur mummy. And bring my sisters to redeem the groupon voucher which I bought for us last month at a mall nearby.

Thus, I told him that, I couldn't make it. Somehow, he tried as hard as he can just for a short meet up. And me phone is kinda sick. So I'm not noted one messages that comes in. He meets kakak somewhere in KL, with one of his friends. It shatters me knowing that he's getting smaller. I mean, I was complaining about sooo much irrelevant stuffs, where else someone else was struggling in doing jihad. Where there's a will, there's always a way.

Knowing that he's doing fine is more than enough. I know he'll do good. He's a man. Take care. Eat moreeeeeeeeee you-becoming little-smaller-brother!

Favourite blogshop.

Salam.

This blog has always been my fav blogshop. Reason?

dehotshop.blogspot.com 

1. The price is always cheaper than others. Even if other sellers have the same design of clothesline.
2. Nice jubah(s) and maxi(s).

It's just that... Currently I cannot buy clothes anymore. Because my closet are so packed up. The clothes have sentimental values. Club t-shirts. Mummy's work. And... I'm stuck between 'want' and 'need'.

 
Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal.


 

Mereka mengira hari. Saya tumpang gembira.

Salam.

Tak lama lagi, giliran kakak pula hendak menempuh alam baru. Alam berumahtangga, menjadi isteri, pembantu kapten di bahtera, ibu, guru, nenek, dan banyak lagi. Semoga kakak bahagia hingga syurga. Semoga, kakak jadi isteri, penyejuk mata suami, dan ibu yang solehah.

Kakak lain pula, sedang mengandung. Baru bulan pertama. Kata kakak, dia berdebar. "cuba wani bayangkan wani mengandung?" "wani tak le bayangkan lagi. Sebab wani jadi isteri pun belum. So wani kena bayang jadi isteri dulu". Saya pula yang rasa nervous. Lagi lagi baru tamat baca "Aku Terima Nikahnya". Maka, terasa jugalah dugaan menjadi seorang isteri dan ibu. Sebab, bila dah ke alam perkahwinan, haruslah bersedia untuk menjadi ibu dan bapa. Besar amanah itu. Pasti akan disoal di akhirat nanti mengenai tanggungjawab mendidik anak ilmu agama.

Siang tadi, sempat ke kedai buku. Kelabu mata jadinya. Sebab banyak sangat pilihan buku mengenai perkahwinan dan amalan semasa mengandung. Orang lain yang nak berkahwin, melahirkan anak, saya pula yang rasa teruja hendak membeli buku sebegitu. Nasi baiklah dalam purse ada kurang dari rm 10. Hehe.

Ikhlas di hati.

Salam.

Pada hari itu, saya menemani ibu ke salah satu perjumpaannya dengan teman teman. Minat mereka sama. Menjahit. Bezanya dulu dengan sekarang, jika disebut menjahit, tidak hanya tertumpu kepada baju dan langsir tetapi juga termasuk hasil tangan yang lain. Ribbon embroidery, tatting, manik, dll.

Mereka baya baya saya sahaja. Takkan nak panggil mereka aunty walaupun mereka memanggil ibu, 'kak'? Ada kakak ini bawa anaknya. Baru beberapa bulan. Comel. Di akhir majlis, ada kakak lain tolong menjaga bayi itu. Lantas, diagahnya ibu. Bayi fokus pada ibu.

Saya : kenapa dia pandang ibu je? *berbau dengki*
Ibu : baby memang suka kat ibu.
Kakak : orang ikhlas, kat muka pun boleh nampak. Sebab itu baby suka.
Ibu : *senyum*.

Mungkin, memang betul. Kadang kadang, bila orang betul betul ikhlas, kita boleh rasa keikhlasannya.
"ikhlas itu pada hati. Bukan pada bibir" -cerekarama al-ikhlas.

Dan betul, kalau ibu mengajar orang, ibu akan ajar betul betul. Dari awal, sampai orang betul betul pandai. Langkah demi langkah. Cuma kadang, orang tak belajar sampai habis. Sebab bila separuh jalan, dah boleh cuba sendiri. Cumanya, hasilnya mungkin tak seperti ibu buat. Takpelah kan. Lama lama nanti pandai lah kot kan.

Saya : dia belajar tak habis tapi dah beriya buat business dah. Ibu tak rasa rugi ke?
Ibu : takpelah. Rezeki dia.

*sayang ibu !*
Bila nak buat sesuatu, ikhlaskan hati. Mungkin tak mudah, tapi tak mustahil. Buat betul betul. Tak rugi apa pun.

Judgementations.

No matter how good you are, never look down on others. Cause, one day, you might fall and they're the only one that's there to lend a hand

Saya rindu dia.

Semoga, di mana jua dia berada, dia tetap kuat menghadapi dugaanmu, ya Allah. Peliharalah dia, ya Allah. Semoga, kita dapat bertemu lagi. Jika bukan di dunia, di syurga nanti. InsyaAllah. Biar sakit di dunia, namun kebahagiaan menanti di akhirat.

I missed her.

Never 'thought'.

Salam.

A reminder. Never 'thought'. I 'thought' it was cancelled. I 'thought' nobody agreed. I 'thought' it's cheaper. Well, we'll never know until we ask. We'll never know until we clarify. If one really wants something or, one wants to know about something badly, then one will work hard for it. Right? ;D

Bert have a pink case. Yay. It mathes the theme. Black and pink. I'm bored with grey already. Hihi.

My fear. Stress.

Salam,

When people asked me on how do I manage stress, honestly saying, I don't. I'm bad at it. Lately, I get worried easily. I know, over-think about something unmanageable is bad. I mean, if I think to much, but I end up cannot do anything about it, why should I waste my time thinking, or worrying? Yet, I cannot get stressed out. Cause I'll end up making my body to be sick, unintentionally. I mean, it just happens, even though I eat well. 

One thing worries me. Afiq told me that, depression is serious. At first, it's just depression, and then, the patient will starts to have hallucination, schizophrenia, and last, end up in a psy ward. Worst comes to worst, suicide. But in Islam, if one suicides, the suicide will keep repeating in hell. *correct me if I'm wrong* And a psy report is a lifetime. I mean, it can effect one's career, life. It's just that, sometimes, I think that I'm still depressed. But I cannot be depressed. If not, I'll be sick. I'm stressed because cannot be stress. 

And I know, the best way is to get myself nearer to Allah s.w.t. 

What I used to do, is to write, or share my fears. But if by sharing my fears makes people misunderstood me, saying I'm acting like an angel, where else I know I'm not, I guess, I should never open myself up again, don't I?

Yours sincerely,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran.

 

 "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have."  

Mengeluh.

Salam.

Yesterday, was a blast. Tiring. But I'm glad that I managed to spend a bit of my day with people(s) I love.

And today, I don't feel like talking to anyone in office. Or, I just don't wanna listen anymore. 

I dunno. Sometime, I take it as, others are just sharing their thoughts. In return, when I listen, I can learn. Now, I just hate it when some people can't stop complaining. And yes, I am complaining here. It's like, you don't know how lucky you are, how people wanted to be in yours shoes, instead, you're not grateful with what you have. If you're not grateful with what you have now, how on earth you will react when Allah gives you more?

I hate it when with some people, I spill out what I'm not suppose to. Eg : Yesterday evening.

 "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have."  

Tata pakmns. Hello SESERIans.

Salam. 2006, I made an application to become a facilitator for n9 orientation week. I get to know seniors from different batch. I used the advantage of being in the same LDK with a JPP during my matriks life to spare me a place as a facilitator in orientation week years after that. I get myself involved in the pakmns. Although some people might not want me to be around, but because of the reason that, 'I'm always available' I get to join in. Haha. Until last 2 years, it's the end of my life as a facilitator in matriks. Thus, the end of my involvement in pakmns last year. Especially when last year, there's a new election for MT of pakmns 2011/2013. Now, I'm trying to help the secretary to recall back all the reports that are MIA. Plus, a helping hand for the Registration Biro. Taught them how I did those, so tata girls~ ;D It took me more than 6 months just to key in around 100 forms. i wonder how soon they can finish up 700+ forms. Tomorrow, I guess. Because they are more hardworking than me. Hihi. And, tata pakmns. Hello, SESERIans. A safer organization. Since, no guys are going to be involved here. Hehe. I have load of plans in my mind. Let's start by... Registering the alumni, shall we? And a nice name for alumni? Hehe. ;D

Hopes and dreams.

Salam.

Ya ALLAH, permudahkanlah urusan kami.

 Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal.