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sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk.

Al-Baqarah 2:45

2012-03-08

Can I be honest?


Salam.

Lately, I am trying hard to calm myself. So that I don't overthink. Cause I'll end up stressed, depressed, moody and such. Had too many things in my mind. 

Work.
A colleague is resigning. My concern is that, when she's going out another 2 weeks, I'm the one who needs to take over her work. And I'm praying hard that her replacement is going to be in soon. I guess, I need to reconfirm with boss, right? 
I enjoyed the work. I'm multitasking. So I don't get bored easily. The environment is OK. People are friendly. It's just that, I'm having an issue with a colleague. I cannot get along with her. I feel like being used. When kakak is not around, she'll find me. Spare part. I dunno. Maybe I'm the type that, you mess with me, I don't like you anymore. Especially after an incident last few months. Trying hard to forget the incident, though. 

Gym.
End of last year, I joined a gym. As time goes by, I felt like it was a waste. At first, I was thinking that, if I pay something, OF COURSE I will utilize my money. After two months, I realized that I'm wrong instead. I end up using some money that I reserved for emergencies. I don't have time to spend at the gym. I need to be at home by dark. If not, it will be dangerous especially when lately there are robberies happening at my housing area. But if I terminate my contract I need to pay penalty. 

Health.
Being stressed out makes me stay in bed longer. I easily doze off at night. Sometimes, by 2100 hours, the only thing that I have in my mind is BED. I easily get tired. Accompanying dear brother at a grocery store for just 1 hour and I'm being grumpy already. Normally, it's not a big problem for me. Now, my neck and shoulder aches. *surveying for a nice price for spa*

Eating habits.
At work, during lunch I ate biscuits with coffee/Milo. Thus, when I arrived home after work, I was starving. And I end up eating a lot. I guess, that's why I doze of easily at night? There are some times, I went to bed without having dinner. Not a good habit either. 

Relationships.
I don't bother on what's happening to people around me anymore. I focused more on my family and myself instead. I used to care so much those days. 

May you have a great day~

Yours sincerely,
Noru Aruwani

1 comment:

miranasib said...

Dear sist~

be strong...be patiece..keep smiling my lovely sister

there must be a way to overcome all those problems..must be..juz He did not u show u the way yet..sooner or later, He will...insyaAllah

You know what’s beautiful?

Your eyes blinking, your pupils dilating when you’re euphoric, the curve of your smile, the shade of your teeth, the arch of your back, the fingers typing, the breathing thing you do, the thoughts. Your thoughts. How you think is beautiful; how a thought comes to mind is…a miracle, how you operate, how you are; just you. In every sense of the word; all your blood cells, neurons, organs, your limbs, your soul. You are breathtaking, mashaa’Allaah.


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