Taknak. =(

Salam.
This morning, I don't feel that kind of excited. I dunno. Having that conversation.
Dia : so bapak jadi tak nak beli kereta?
Me : tak tau.
Dia : nanti kalau nak pergi kerja senang. Apa apa hal, wani boleh g sendiri. Boleh berdikari.
Me : pa boleh je hantar kalau pagi pagi.

That statement 'berdikari'. Dulu masa nak pilih, you gave me reasons of not accepting masjid jamek, because boleh naik kereta, takyah sesak sesak, duduk je. Now, nak tuntut berdikari pula? I will, when the time comes. Lagi you force me to do so, lagi i don't do it. I have plans. I need to save up. Nak cuba buat balik something yang i have failed to. And that, i tell you, requires money which right now, I'm lack of. Period.

Leaving.

Hi. I don't feel good this few days. Happy, I am. indeed. It's just that, I'm not growing up. And I guess this frustrates everyone. And now, the only person that never leaves me since 2006, walked away. Saying goodbye. Bad, aren't I?

Jangan kata kalau tak kenal.

Salam.
Saya bukanlah seorang yang berkelulusan sekolah agama. Setahun sahaja sekolah agama. Masa Darjah 1. Masuk sekolah asrama, saya sertai Ahli Surau. *sekarang panggil Imtiaz* Dengan niat nak belajar. Ada satu perasaan yang sangat tenang bila dikelilingi gadis baik baik, yang bertudung labuh. Dan saya suka perasaan itu. Sejak sekolah asrama itu, saya cuba jadi orang yang lebih baik. Terutamanya dari segi agama. Di situ, saya dapat keyakinan untuk menjadi seorang Imam. Walaupun sekolah itu sekolah asrama yang semasa makannya, wajib makan dengan sudu. Yang paling paling ingat adalah masa matriks, masa universiti. Tiap tiap malam jalan jauh jauh dengan kawan nak pergi dewan solat tarawih beramai ramai, mahupun dengar ceramah. Atau, masa program anjuran Rabbani+Gamis. Rasa tenang lebih lebih lagi melihat perwatakan mereka. Rindu. Dan saya masih cuba untuk menjadi diri yang lebih baik. Atau sekurang kurangnya, memberi kebaikan pada orang sekeliling. Cuma, saya agak terkilan. Saya bukanlah seorang yang sempurna. Kadang kadang, rasa diri sangat nakal. Suka berjalan jalan berjumpa kawan. Dan bukanlah contoh yang baik untuk adik adik. Tapi, saya tetap cuba. Dan mungkin, kawan saya tidaklah sebaik atau sesempurna kawan kawan orang lain. Namun, tidakkah lebih baik jika cuba mengenalnya dahulu sebelum melontarkan kesimpulan tentang dirinya? Sebab saya yang nakal, orang lain yang dipersalahkan. Kejam untuk dia.

Love quote.

Salam.

What will you conclude me if I'm sharing this? Aha. ;p

"You've done it, you've made me start to fall in love with you. I'm sitting here crying because I'm so scared but at the same time, I'm so happy I'm falling in love with you. You're the person I've waited for all this time, the person I've looked for all my life and when I least expected it you walked into my life.You listened when I talked, was there when I cried and made me finally smile. I'm crying for the last time I hope, I trust that you won't hurt me. It's so hard for me to trust guys, but you're worth it to me. So, here's my heart, see all the little cracks... they're pretty small and healed nicely, but you, I know, that you're the one that could make it completely shatter. Promise me you wont, please, promise me you'll love me forever, and that you won't break my heart. Even if you can't promise me that, I'll give you my heart anyway, cause I know that if I don't give you my heart I'll regret it for the rest if my life, cause you're the one person who is necessary to my life." - Kate Tierny 

"so what, you're scared, right? You're scared, and so am i, believe me, and I'm scared because i don't know where this is going, jo, as in, i think it could go anywhere, this could be it." - dawson's creek 


Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal.

Excited!

Salam. Kakak is flying tonight. So, I'm on my way to the airport to meet her. It's a sudden decision. Asked daddy, asked friend, asked another kakak, and I'm lucky enough that my dear friend is available this evening. Thus, I can go meet kakak. With friend as the driver of course. Lucky to have a nice friend. Hehe. So dear kakak, we've come all the way just to see you going to fly. And if you ever say that I don't love you, I'm so gonna debik you, make you eat a lot until you become fat. Haha. Okay. Till then, have a nice day people~

p/s : perhaps I can do the food hunt today? Hopefully. ;p

Abang dan kakak dan kakak dan kakak.

Good morning people~
Rise and shine. It's Saturdayyy. I'm not sure of going out for food hunt on this afternoon or tomorrow. Cause my friend is kinda busy and out of reach. Normally, if friend is out of reach, it means that friend is busy. But I still hope that it's going to happen. Craving for it alreadyyy. =(

Okay. Last few days, I was talking to this friend. Kakak. She was going to be married like few months away. And she told me about not preparing things for door gift of her nikah. Erk, nikah apa dalam bi? Cause the reception is going to be held end of this year. So, I'm thinking of a bestfriend's girlfriend(bf's gf). Which sometimes I refer as kakak. This bf's gf is selling cupcakes. I saw she's selling cupcakes/muffins lately. Errr, how can we differ muffins and cupcakes? ;p Bought kakak's cupcakes and gave to another kakak a few of it. And if it goes well, I hope it does, kakak will be ordering from kakak. Hehe. I don't know why but it excites me that I can get along with bf's gf. Bestfriend is like my big brother and kakak is so nice. Having kakak around is like I'm having another big sister. I really hoped that they will get married and lived happily ever after.

And here's another kakak. I'm not sure currently she's in which state. She went for an exam last few days. I hoped that she passed. We don't have time to talk about it yet but I hope that it goes wll for her. It's just that... If she passed the exam with flying colours, it means that she might be spending her whole life somewhere in Kelantan. Oh nooo! It's a faraway land. I guess, we're not going to be this close anymore. But hey! I really hoped that she'll be happy with whatever she's doing and whatever she thinks the best for her. A friend should be happy for another friend's happiness right?

I'm sad hearing things that happen with dear cousie. Hoped that can meet cousie.

I guess, I still believe that people can change for a better person, no matter how bad they used to be. Because what's past is past. If you're bad in the past, it doesn't means that you're a bad person right now. And if you used to be a nice person, it doesn't means that currently you're a nice person. People can really change, ya know?

Awek.

Salam. Hye!

It's thursday. And I'm looking forward for this weekend. Food hunt! I guess I should change my cheat day from Wednesday to Sunday. Especially when Sunday is my day out and, I can easily access to any kinds of interesting food when I'm hanging out. What is cheat day? Well, I read from an article somewhere, can't remember the web. The article said that those who are on diet should make a day where she/he can eat any food that they feel to. And currently, I'm controlling my food consume. Since 3rd July is less than one month away, I need to lose weight fast!

Okay. Enough of cheat day. Today, the neighbour is around. So, we kinda have some short chat. It's something like this.
Neighbour (N) : Nor, selalu orang panggil you apa?
Me : Selalu, alwani, wani.
N : Boleh ke nak panggil Nor?
Me : Boleh je. Lagipun, that's my name.
N : Kalau panggil nama lain, boleh?
Me : Apa?
N : Awek.
Me : Haha!

Now, I wondered why neighbour isn't in a relationship.

That's all peeps! Have a nice dayyy!

P/s : Malam ni malam j. Ada baca surah kahfi secara berjemaah.

Another attempt.

Hye! I'm trying out this new setting which I just changed. It's kind of exciting especially when it works. And also to see how the output becomes. Currently, the adaptor for Belle(laptop) is sick. Until I have money, I can't blog from my laptop. So, I'm finding ways to blog. Just some alternatives. Since, I'm also having problem to blog using my phone. It takes forever just to load the post page!

Testing 1 2 3. Oh, this is sooo exciting! Hehe. ;p

Congratulations Puan Ain and Encik Hamidi.

Salam.

With Puan Ain. 

*I stole smaller sister's shawl ;p*

Congratulations Puan Ain and Encik Hamidi. May your marriage stays until heaven. And granted beautiful children by heart. Soleh and solehah each and every one of them. It's a last minute decision. I've been trying to find ways to go for this wedding since last week. The wedding is somewhere in Johor. I asked kakak. Asked practicum mate. Asked university colleagues. PPSMers. Since they are planning to convoy. But somehow, it looks like every car is full. The space is occupied. I won't have problem going. But the problem of how to come back to Selangor is what that matters. Since, I thought of going for a best friend's brother's wedding which is on Sunday(today) that at the end I didn't even go to. Haha. Sorry Zahira. I don't have transport. And and, I'm still tired of yesterday's journey. Back pain. 

Luckily the problem of how to go back settled. Thanks to Farah and Mimah which somehow thought of many different ways and suggestions for me. And to Farah for accompanying me all my way back to Selangor. And to Yana who helped us buying the tickets earlier. Problem solved. 

Oh. On Friday evening at 6.30 pm, I am suppose to meet up Syafiq and others at MASJID JAMEK. What I had in mind is the Masjid Jamek LRT station. Arrived at the LRT station, I called Syafiq. It was horror. Since I only have Syafiq's number kept in my phone and I don't have others number. And yes. At emergency times like that, My Celcom phone is sick and out of credit. When I finally get through, I realised that I'm suppose to go for MASJID JAMEK instead. Oh my. Never been there. Walked myself confidently, I saw the mosque's kubah. And did saw Syafiq in his car. Haha.

It was five of us in the car at first. Syafiq, Azhar, Shyzuan, Safawa and me. I rarely talked to Safawa while we were still a student. So, what happened when you're in a car full of actuarist? Well, I laughed when they cracked jokes, and gained some knowledge from their conversations. Although I don't understand much. Still, it's knowledge. Oh, my stomach aches because of too much laughing. The stopped at BBB Tomyam for dinner at 8+ p.m.. Since, that is one of their favorite restaurant while we are still students. 

At BBB Tomyam, we met Sarra, Yati, Mimah, Farah and Farah KTHO. Then we exchange the passengers, since Azhar needs to drive Sarra's car. Thus, Farah KTHO joins Syafiq's carpool. Around 10, we started our journey again. Since there was lots of cars on road, we arrived JB at 3 a.m.

Arriving at Ain' place by 12+, I met Yana, Siti, Aida and Ida. Oh. Ain of course. By 1.30+ she was ready for the event. Dressed Blue+white coloured dress, she looked gorgeous. Encik Hamidi arrived by 2.00+. And the photography session starts. Oh, since it's a Johorean wedding, of course there were tolls on the bridegroom's way to meet up the bride. 

By 3.00+ I'm ready to head back to Selangor. It's a short time to meet up Ida and share stories. I almost cred saying goodbye to her. The bus ticket was at 4.30. Since Mimah was on her way back to her hometown, she followed me and Farah to the bus station. Thanks to Syafiq for sending us there. 

Arrived the TBS at 9+ p.m. Daddy and other sisters arrived there already to pick me up. 

And this journey, its a nice one. Although I almost get a heart attack because of something unexpected, I'm glad that I finally make it to be there on Ain's red letter day. There is this few sentences that I still remembered until today. It was very meaningful. Since it was from a guy friend that have known me since first year , it made my day. I mean like, your friends actually have your back. Sometimes, they are watching from afar. And praying that you get the best in your life. But we sometimes don't notice that.

Thank you for the, "I'm glad to hear that." and others.

Above all, thank you everyone for this journey. Mummy, Daddy. Friends. It's a less than 24 hours meet up, yet it made my day. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.

Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal.

Motif?

Salam.

Salah satu paling tak disukai is bila bangun pagi tu, and teringat mimpi, and, it's scary! I hate nightmares. I really really do. Macam, ada orang kata, mimpi tu mainan syaitan. Ada juga yang kata, mimpi tu petunjuk. Ada orang kata, dari mimpi tu, boleh tahu saka ke tak. Mungkin, rindu. Rindu nak bersama mereka. Bertukar tukar cerita. Oh, I need new environment. I really really do.

Siang bual bual dengan Kokyun. Then before tidur, macam komen conversation dengan jejaka jejaka ini. There's a part of the dream, it happens that Kokyun was driving with me beside her, and we passed by these shops, and the boys are in the shops. Pakai baju merah. Motif?

Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal.