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Al-Baqarah 2:45

2009-06-20

manusia dan prinsip hidup.

sori klu ade yg terase. tp this is the fact. n here is where im saying what i feel.

nk cite psl mppb. tp cite psl ni dulu.

suppose blk umh by smlm ptg. tp ats faktor2 tertentu, tmasuklah nk elak dr naik kmtr mlm2 lg2 lps berlakunya kes dr kepong sentral dlu, keputusn telah diambil.perjalanan balik pg ni.

fc2 tua guls lain blk awal. sbb hal2 yg xle nk elak. xpelah. leh hang out ngn adik2.

lps solat jmaat ade jamuan. mkn kfc. tp x abis. so smpn utk mkn mlm. tp mlm tu xsmpt mkn pun. so, it become my breakfast this morn.

after jmuan tu main bola tampar. hanya utk yg berani jek. (ayat sape ni ha =P) fc Vs student. (fc yg main, u know who u r. ade gak fc yg dok kat tepi). tp yg memenatkan bukan sebab kejar bola ke ape ke. tp sbb dok gelak jek. ade je yg bkate2, dhla bile tim ku nak serve, ku xle nk serve dr luar. sbb special kes(pukul bola xkuat), adik2 suh serve dr dlm. lyn kn jelah. nape tah xcukup energy. jd xle nk serve dr luar. penat xckup tido kot. mule2 mate penentuan 20,bile mcm nk klh, di upkan ke 30. bile agak2 nk klh lg, wat game baru utk 10 mata lak. pdhl time tu sume org dh beransur nk blk. sbb dh area 720 lah jgak. nak maghrib tu. but anyway, thanks guys n gurls, i had fun.

ok. sekarang. bermulalah episod mlm smlm yg agk menyakitkan. bkn agak menyakitkan. SANGAT MENYAKITKAN.

mlmnye, ramai2 g karok. tmpt yg xpernah ku jejak kaki.
dhla tak isyak lg. sbb kunun2 nk g lps maghrib. tp g lmbt gk.
YA ALLAH. daku bertudung besar ini jejak kaki ke karok.
apa yg telah ku lakukan ni?
sedangkan ku dlm proses memperbaiki diri.
bit by bit.

ok. fine.
g jugak. sbb pkir, sume org g.
kang x g ade yg bkate2. sdgkan rs sgt mls nk g snanye.
maka, tersebutlah bhw sume org pergi.
aduh susahnye nk jaga ati sume org. rs cam sgt talam dua muka.
dlm ati rs sgt mls nk nyanyi. n bile smpi nk dok diam2 jek.
dhla dgn ngntuk sbb tido yg puratanye stiap ari 2 jam jek xtertopup lg.
xle nk tido nye psl.

smbg td.
sblm pegi. singgah psr mlm. i bought kaya ball, taufufa, n soya drink. bile smpi, igtkn biliknye besar. sbb dgr2nye muat utk 13 org.
yg pegi, dlm 20 org xsilap.
klu xpun, ku igt asing laki pmpuan. tp bile bcmpur laki pmpuan dlm bilik kcik, sgt xselesa n leh sesak nafas sbb byk sgt CO2 ok. dhla sgt kuat. leh kene heart attack. klu bilik asing2 xpe gk.
k, leh sbr lg. dok diam2.
tibe2 ade suara2 yg bsuara. wani wani. nak wani nyanyi. banyak ah. mengantuk la. n it's against my prinsip. i sing for my husband.
ku cakap ah taknak.
time ni ku blh lg nk tunjuk muke baik.
pastu, ade lg yg pggl.
keputusan ku x berubah.
XNAK.
ku mkn mknn yg dibeli. n wat bz dgn enpon. msg org tu, msg org ni.
igtkn bile dh ckp TAK NAK dua tiga kali, dah xde suara2 yg pggl2 NAMAKU. tgk2,
still ada yg request. bkn skali. tp bbrape kali lak tu. hulur2 mic lg.

ku paling pantang kalau bile ku dah cakap taknak, pastu ade yg nak paksa2 wlu cmnepun. lg2 klu cm yg oposite dgn prinsip idupku. paling pantang. dh ckp tak nak, taknak lah. yg paksa2 tu nape? dhla ku ni plg malas nk cari gaduh, berdebat.
ade bnde i can consider AS LONG AS IT DOESN'T BERCANGGAH dgn prinsip ku.
tersepit dan disepit.
antara prinsip n menjaga hati org lain.
ku dh tensen dh. dlm ati byk2 doa. cptlah abis. cptlah habis.
ataupun, doa agar ALLAH turunkan penyelamat bawa ku lari dr tempat itu.

lantaklah kalian nak kate ku xsporting ke ape ke. but this is me.
stiap org ade prinsip die sndiri. n this is my prinsip of life.

last2, ade pnyelamat. adik2, thanks sgt2. i owe u guys.(u know who u r). rase sgt lega sbb dpt kuar dr tmpt tu. hidup rs sgt terseksa kt dlm tu. n thanks for the apple juice. sgt sedap.pndi adik plh.

then, mkn2 kt tmpt biasa. sdkt sbyk dpt sharing2 psl a bit of my life. n btukar2 pndpt.

a few days b4, ade fc mude yg tgur. cm kagum sbb ku nmpk tenang jek. sesungguhnye, hanya yang TAHU akn tau isi hatiku yg sbnr2nye. never judge a book by it's cover, dik.

N the fact about alwani is that, ku adlh seorg yg sgt cpt berubah2 mood. mule2 nmpk ok. about a few minutes, i'm already making faces n nmpk dh x ok.
especially when ku dipaksa buat sumting yg against my prinsip hidup.

dan itulah yg blaku pd mlm smlm.
ku sygkan smua org yg ku kenali.
ku bknlah anti kn sesiapa. cume, ku bertindak demikian kerana ku adalah diriku.
bkn ku xnak sporting. i can b sporting, tp when it's against what i hold, i dont bother to show the 'sportingness' n hold to my prinsip instead.

ada a few things yg im against tmasuklah going to jom heboh n genting. (jd klu nk ajk ku g genting, sorilah. the answer is no. so, kite g pantai jom. =P)


ku kena berusaha untuk menjadikan diriku seorang yg tegas.
i have my own reasons 4 my actions.
every people differs from others.
susahnya nak buat manusia memahami.

bile fkir2 blk. maybe jgak. they r just having fun. so, cm nk bgembira n ajk sume2 bgembira bsama2. cuma, i'm sooooooo not into the karok thing. n ade batasannye btween boys n gurls.( i know i'm not so baik. but i'm trying to be baik) n it bcame my big deal. it's just how i think. maybe im pissed off while im writing here. but im not going to berdendam. i have reasons for my actions, n i bet others that night might also have their own reasons.
im writing here so that peeps understood that evryone have their own principle of life. n so do i.



p/S: cube kire brape kali pkataan prinsip digunakan. =p

5 comments:

Misz SeroJa said...

salam..

kak wani zaid pon kadang2 kna mcm niey..
rasa tersepit sebab orang suh kita wat apa yg kita x nak..
n zaid stuju stiap orang ada prinsip masing2...
n kdng2 kita kna kuat untuk pertahankan prinsip 2...
sumtimes mmg kita ley jadi sporting..
tp kalo da against kita punya prinsip mmglah x ley dpertmbangkan..huhu

Ain bintu Amir said...

yeah you're soo right~
cannot paksa2 sumbody in what yg die xske rite.
:)
sian u kena paksa..

Anonymous said...

syabas!!!!
:)

Noru Amran said...

syabas sbb?

echa said...

kak wani,echa phm prasaan kak wani..
n ade sum part tu gak echa,yufi n shida felts the same cm kak wani..
n ade sumting yg lain yg kak wani xsebut kat cni kitorg xslese..
dat's y kitorg kua awl dr yg lain..
act nk kua ikot kak wani time abg akmal n abg izwan ajak kua..
but takot dkatekan sebuk lak..
hehe..
but seriously kak wani
kte pnye prasaan yg same mlm tu
;p

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