Hate

Hates it when people makes promises and breaks it at the end of the day. Many times. And when I no longer trust, he complaint, why can't I trust him? Kalau dah 100 janji, 5 je boleh pakai, can I trust again?

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran

Kelab ke alumni?

Dah macam kelab yang penasihatnya kaunselor. So much of professionals lah kan masing masing bila sikit sikit nak tanya cikgu. Baik xyah ada pres. 

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran

Pyjama Drama.

Assalamualaikum 

Walaupun tempat hantar Aydan ni is full day programme and have activity macam macam, the school still ada extra curricular activity (ECA) after preschool hours. Maybe actually intended for bigger kids tapi still cater for younger kids, as young as 2 y/o. Cuma they break ikut age group. So one of the ECA is Pyjama Drama. It's not new in Malaysia. Dah few years back. Tapi baru start dengan school Aydan. And I'm quite interested with it untuk enroll Aydan sebab nampak Aydan minat playrole, imagine. So masa 24 Feb hari tu ada trial class. But mixed dgn budak besar. Aydan shows how uncomfortable he is. But towards dah nak habis class tu, dia baru nak warm up. Especially bila part nak kena clean up balik the instruments. Kalau Aydan join, dia akan masuk kelas 2-3 y/o. Cumanya. Budak 2 y/o yang datang, is only him. 3 y/o ada la a few and ada yang sama class dengan Aydan masa he was in infant care dulu (3 -18months). So thing is, last nak register is tomorrow. Next week ada lagi satu trial class but by age group. And if jadi nak join, this month bayar half fee je. Abang tak bagi join. Macam cakap nanti dia besar sikit. But I can believe takkan ada pun. Lagipun tahun depan most probably tak sekolah sini dah. Bukan sebab fees. Tapi sebab akan pindah rumah. InsyaAllah. And yes, I'm degil. Tak taulah. Macam when it comes to Aydan, I don't mind to spend. And sebab grow up, ada 3 benda yang bapak tak berkira. Education, health, food. But bila kira nak bayar hutang semua, tak cukup nak bayar extra untuk enroll kelas pun. So rasa sangat ralat. Cause I don't know bila nak ada opportunity ni. But boleh je nak work harder kan. Cuma, perlu tak? Intention nak hantar drama class ni bukan untuk dia jadi pelakon ke apa. But nak boost dianya self esteem. And bagi dia berani cakap kat depan. 

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran

A day in a glance.

Assalamualaikum 

Life is hectic, stressful and messy nowadays.

Always rushing. 

I hardly wake up early now. Kadnag bila terjaga at 2, susah nak tidur balik. End up about 7 baru bangun. Pumpampumpam, 8+ keluar rumah, send Aydan. Sampai office 9+. Bila sampai office, emotions dah x ok. Sebab dah stress drive nak sampai cepat.  The adrenaline rush is no fun. Orang lain sampai office before 8. As per agreed dengan boss, dia kata my clocking is 830-530. Tapi now, asyik sampai lambat. Work efficiency is affected. Email tak habis baca. Report tak siap elok. PO tak habis issued. Then by 520 dah kena log off supaya by 530 dah kat dpn lif or dlm kereta. Sampai at Aydan about 615. Another rush. Kadang kesian dia tunggu lama. Kalau hujan lagi teruk. Traffic is even worse. Bila ada adik, IDK how to manage, what to expect. Macamni pun dah rasa penat. Ibu was like, kakla layan jela Aydan. Masa nak dapat iyah pun kakla super clingy. So dah jadi macam what comes around comea around la kan. I tried to stay calm, layan dia nak apa... But until one time, I'm very exhausted and snapped. Take 5. I will leave him for a while, then datang balik. Sebab taknak my words make him sad. But sangat sangat psycho bila kejap you like a breathing dragon then one while jadi setenang air di tasik. Aiman jadi saksi all. Sometimes,  kalau Aiman is in a good mood, dia akan tolong entertain Aydan. Bawak Aydan bukak kasut, naik atas. 

House is in a mess now, sebab tengah treatment anai2 so banyak tempat Aydan takle gi kat bawah tu. Just main kat atas je. And now tengah takde air. I'm trying hard nak clear laundry. Baju baju dah packing dah. But mentally I'm not ready yet. 

Thank you & have a nice day,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran