Aydan at 22 months now.

Salam.

Aydan is reaching 22 months soon. I'm planning to celebrate his birthday at school in March nanti. Since last year just bawak kek je. And Aydan dah mula faham 'happy birthday' so I think it's worth. Lagipun nak meraikan dia dah besar, and soon to be abang. So that dia still rasa disayangi. I know I sometimes scold him. Tried hard to educate him wisely, dalam keadaan tenang. but there are times I do snapped. Macam this morning. *sigh*.

Ok, he's showing his interest, his attitude semua now. Ibu cakap, he really resembles me during my early years. So sometimes, I just laughed, and dengan tenang layan dia cause, I know that is from me. The OCD thing. Like bila dia minum air and tumpah kena baju, definitely he will be really restless and tarik2 baju nak suruh tukar. *laughs* Vocabs. His vocabs pun makin banyak, he will start to repeat our words, so bila cakap depan dia pun kena sopan2 dan beretika. Semalam teacher dia puji, Aydan ni rajin clean up. The teacher masa dia infant class was there and senyum. Aydan, cara dia main is different. Jenis suka kemas, susun. But... IDK why, kalau kat rumah tu habis main, belum lekat lagi attitude kemas mainan sebelum tidur or anything. I should always remind him kan.

Sampaikan, sebab everytime kalau balik rumah nenek(abam's), Aydan akan suka masuk kitchen, pergi kat rak and ambil jag plastik clear tu buat main. Masa awal awal nenek akan bebel marah. After a while, sebab Aydan selalu buat macam tu, Nenek just cakap,"kemaslah, mainlah" hehe. See how consistent he is at times? hahaaa

And yeah, I'm just wishing Aydan berselera makan nasi, sayur, ayam, telur, proteins, supaya dia cepat besar dan tinggi and senang dia nak do things.

 Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal. “The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have.” :D

Being a mother vs employee.

Salam.

This weekend akan ada company event. Sales Convention. It's a 2 days 1 night program in PD. Of courselah nak pergi. Since bukan selalu company buat like this. Or I can rephrase that. Since kerja sini, this is the first time.

Cuma... I have many thoughts. Will Aydan be OK without me sleeping with him that night? Can abam handle him? I know Aydan did behave well when I'm not around. Only becomes clingy with me.  Then, I'm in my 3rd trim already. Will I be OK? And... You know. It's an expensive hotel. Everytime... I would make myself share with Aydan or with Abam. but this time, macam berhappy2 seorang seorang, makes me feel bad. Ibu thought us dari kecil macam share. If keluar somewhere, and ada yang tak ikut, bawak balik something nak share kat rumah, I will always try to do that. Walaupun sekadar bawak balik RotiBoy. *sigh* RotiBoy dah mahal now. BUt will always try. So when it comes like this, I do feel bad. And you know, my roomie is not going to sleep there. Will it be bad if I import abam and Aydan senyap2? It's company event. But I don't want to sleep alone though. yet sometimes being alone is good kan. Ada me time. Thinking to leave the dinner early too. at 10 PM ke. Ibu mengandung tak baik tidur lewat. Yeah, I think nak import abam and Aydan senyap2. ada pool but tak dapat bawak Aydan mandi macam... sayangnya. and nak simpan duit lebih sikit la, nanti year end nak ajak siblings and ibu and bapak we go sleep at that hotel for one night, mandi pool dalam bilik sampai lebam.

Kalau tak ikhlas, buat apa pun tak jadi. Usaha doa tawakal. “The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have.” :D