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Al-Baqarah 2:45

2011-11-28

Dilemma.

Salam. Hi people. How's life? I'm having a break from work until... Wednesday! So i'll be back at work on Thursday. 1st of December. Well, that means, one month left for my b-dayyy! ;)

I'm having a dilemma. During weekends, I'm working as full-time weekend teacher at one of Computertots centre. It just started on last two weeks. So today is Monday and this weekend is going to be my third. 

It's different with teaching in school holiday camp ppn last time where I dealt with 12 students in a class, aged 14 and 15. In Computertots here, I'm teaching students aged 7-8(level 3). The range could be anywhere in between 3-12 years old. 

What I know about this teaching company is that, it's the only teaching company that passed this one accreditors. Errr... US based of. It's kind of like SIRIM, where only those appliances that fulfills the requirements will get that SIRIM label. But I don't really remember the license sort thingy name.

The path in getting this job was so easy. I saw it in Jobstreet. One hour later, the person in charge called, scheduling for the interview on Saturday so that I don't have to take a leave just for the interview, went for the interview, by Monday, I got the answer, and the next Saturday, voila! the training+work starts.

I am seeking for experience. In teaching. Maybe, I might not end up being a teacher/lecturer, maybe I might end up being one. I won't know. But it's a golden opportunity. It's just that... Well, the owner is a Non-Muslim. I'm not being prejudist or sceptical or persimist but this was what happened. On my first day, I wore a baju kurung. So does on my second day, and last Saturday. During training, I was being reminded to wear make ups. Not a heavy one, as long as your face does look so sweaty and a lipstick. That's fine. I don't like wearing make ups anymore. It was back then. And I'm having a sensitive skin. The first sentence I get after the word, morning from the branch manager last Saturday was, "you ni sekolah agama ke?" then it goes, something that means, at the centre, most of the students+customers are non-muslims, or from International school. Thus, went the parents saw a Muslim, they thought that these Muslim people were trying to teach Islam to their kids. As if, trying to make their kids convert. So, no wearing tudung labuh labuh. Come on lah! I'm just wearing bawal 48" and pinned at the front. And that was called as labuh. I was so frustrated that morning, I really felt like giving up. I mean like, this is how I wore, where sometimes, I do wore 50" or 60", since I don't remember when. Like, 12 years ago? Now, tell me, you get a chance in doing something you like, something you always look forward to, but at the same time, you need to sacrifice on who you really are, would you still try?

1 comment:

Unknown said...

salam~~ hi wani~~ lama x singgah sini..situasi mcm ni, jgn give up..ade byk cara utk adapt dgn org yg skeptikal mcm ni. diorang tak salah, sebab diorg tak fhm agama kita. ape yg wani boleh buat, rapatkan jurang yg ada tu..dari segi pakaian, cuba sesuaikan style ikut perkembangan semasa. byk style tudung yg tutup dada+menarik :) try pakai shawl ke..pashmina ke..dari segi sosial, bawa diri dgn profesional :) bila ada org kata wani ni cuba berdakwah, terima dgn positif ok :)

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