Dilemma.

Salam. Hi people. How's life? I'm having a break from work until... Wednesday! So i'll be back at work on Thursday. 1st of December. Well, that means, one month left for my b-dayyy! ;)

I'm having a dilemma. During weekends, I'm working as full-time weekend teacher at one of Computertots centre. It just started on last two weeks. So today is Monday and this weekend is going to be my third. 

It's different with teaching in school holiday camp ppn last time where I dealt with 12 students in a class, aged 14 and 15. In Computertots here, I'm teaching students aged 7-8(level 3). The range could be anywhere in between 3-12 years old. 

What I know about this teaching company is that, it's the only teaching company that passed this one accreditors. Errr... US based of. It's kind of like SIRIM, where only those appliances that fulfills the requirements will get that SIRIM label. But I don't really remember the license sort thingy name.

The path in getting this job was so easy. I saw it in Jobstreet. One hour later, the person in charge called, scheduling for the interview on Saturday so that I don't have to take a leave just for the interview, went for the interview, by Monday, I got the answer, and the next Saturday, voila! the training+work starts.

I am seeking for experience. In teaching. Maybe, I might not end up being a teacher/lecturer, maybe I might end up being one. I won't know. But it's a golden opportunity. It's just that... Well, the owner is a Non-Muslim. I'm not being prejudist or sceptical or persimist but this was what happened. On my first day, I wore a baju kurung. So does on my second day, and last Saturday. During training, I was being reminded to wear make ups. Not a heavy one, as long as your face does look so sweaty and a lipstick. That's fine. I don't like wearing make ups anymore. It was back then. And I'm having a sensitive skin. The first sentence I get after the word, morning from the branch manager last Saturday was, "you ni sekolah agama ke?" then it goes, something that means, at the centre, most of the students+customers are non-muslims, or from International school. Thus, went the parents saw a Muslim, they thought that these Muslim people were trying to teach Islam to their kids. As if, trying to make their kids convert. So, no wearing tudung labuh labuh. Come on lah! I'm just wearing bawal 48" and pinned at the front. And that was called as labuh. I was so frustrated that morning, I really felt like giving up. I mean like, this is how I wore, where sometimes, I do wore 50" or 60", since I don't remember when. Like, 12 years ago? Now, tell me, you get a chance in doing something you like, something you always look forward to, but at the same time, you need to sacrifice on who you really are, would you still try?

Why Saturday?

Salam.

I'm so tied up on Saturday. Tak free. But kakak, Sanchez, Uda, and many of my friends, are having their big day on Saturdays. Sobs. What to do? This is the path that I choose. And urusan nak ke jalan ini, mudah. Macam, rasa blessed sangat. So, I'll stick on my plans. Moga, dapat bertahan selama boleh. Dan moga, semua yang dah atau akan bernikah, berkahwin berbahagia hingga ke syurga dan sentiasa diberkati dan dirahmati Allah s.w.t. Amin.

Alhamdulillah. A new start.

Salam.

 

Alhamdulillah. Life's good lately. Walaupun hujan batu kat hometown kan. ;) Currently, I only keep in touch dengan my family, friends dah jarang. Macam collegue at work tu, haruslah kan. Tapi dengan one or two people je. And that's enough. Macam, lagi prefer to be in the small world of mine. surrounded with people I love, and loves me. And banyak gathering, weddings especially yang I cannot attend. Time tu lah nak keep in touch dengan friends kan. Tapi nak buat macamana. Bukan rezeki nak jumpa friends semua. Update latest news, life, stories semua. But the last wedding yang I pergi convoy ramai ramai with my friends was Ainna Salwa's sister's and An Hanzir's wedding. Time tu around bulan 6, 7 kot. Sebab my friends yang study kat Australia, dah balik Malaysia for good. Mesti diorang marah kan, awal tu bukan main semangat last last batang hidung pun tak nampak. Haha.

 

A new start. That's what I called. Alhamdulillah. Maybe my life taklah segah or adventurous macam orang lain, but I am grateful with what I have. Baru baru ini, hati nak sangat sangat sesuatu ini. Alhamdulillah. Allah makbulkan. So, here goes, a new start for me. Nervous pun ada. Sebab something new for me kan. But, I choosed this path, and here goes... Btw, starting today, officially kalau ada event on Saturday, saya TIDAK BOLEH pergi. Takpelah. Mesti ada hikmah kan. And small sister akan exam MFE less than 11 hours nanti for 3 hours. All the best, my dear. May you pass with flying colours. <3

 

11.11.11

Nice, kan? Ada juga GRS I kena buat today. So dapatlah cop tarikh today. Ha. Dalam binary, apa nilai 111111?

Kali ini.

Ya Allah, dugaanMu kali ini begitu berat. Mampukah aku, Ya Allah? 



Have and desire.

"Do not loose what you have, by desiring what you don't have because what you HAVE now, is one of the many things you once DESIRED..."

Zakat.

Salam. Petikan ceramah pagi pagi otw kerja dengan daddy a while ago. "Nikmat yang Allah bagi kat kita ni sangat banyak. Kita nak bayar balik pun tak cukup. Kenapa kita bekerja? Sebab nak tunaikan zakat. Kenapa tunaikan zakat? Sebab bersyukur atas nikmat harta." jangan lupa bayar zakat ya... ;D

Kalau bayar zakat, nama akan ditulis kat langit.
Langit pertama, pemurah
langit kedua, mulia.
Langit ketiga, taat.
Langit keempat, kebaikan.
Langit kelima, makbulan. Allah makbulkan doa.
langit keenam, mahfuzan. Terpelihara, apa yang kita usahakan dipelihara. Kerana Allah sebaik baik pemelihara. Keluarga, dll.
Langit ketujuh, Seluruh dosa dosa kita Allah ampunkan. 

The more you give, the more you get. Sebab tu kena kerja sungguh sungguh. Lagi kuat kerja, nanti leh bayar zakat lagi banyak. Sebab zakat tu sedekah kan... 
Renung, fikir fikir adakah kita banyak bersyukur pada Allah s.w.t.?
-ustaz ghazali ibrahim, pagi di ikim.fm.

Fat.

Salam.

This morning, while I was going to wash my plate after bfast, dear brother said, "kakla nampak gemuk pakai camtu". 

Then I answered "baju ni memang besar". 

Fact is; I know I will look fat wearing this, this clothing is over sized, anddd after losing 5 kgs, I gained 2 kgs. Thus, please put more effort okie Noru, 4th Dec is just around the corner. It's Friday and most of the citizens are already on leave. Me? Half day today. Just because I wanna go shop at staff shop at 10 a.m. afterwards. And, daddy helped close the gate for me while I'm on my way out for work. *terharu* Love you daddy. And yesterday, a colleague distributed one of the company product for tha staffs to try. We'll see how effective it is. Anddd, end.

Anytime.

Life's too short to be unhappy. *bakal meninggalkan semua bila bila masa. If it happens, do forgive me. Sobs.*

Going out~

Going out. Hopes that JPJ will let me off. We're like not meeting each other for 5 years. Since 2006. I hope that this going out can make her feel happier. I know she likes flowers. Let's show her some flowers, shall we, dear Silvia?

Free.

I love you. That's why I let you go. Cause being free will make you happier. Or at least, that's what I thought. I want you to be happy. Go, fly, higher~

Happiness.

Happiness lies in those who cry, those who have been hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives. -quoted.

Thank you.

1.11.11

Salam. Like, in binary code, what is the value of this number? 11111. Cuba cuba. Kalian kan tere tere semuanya. Btw, may things are better for you, me, us, we, all for this month and comings months, year, decade, century, millenia. I have a nice quote to share today. Because I've read about this one guy willing to do anything to let go of his past. This guy was a skinhead while ago. So he went through suffers just to remove the tattoos all over his face since, it doesn't make him look appropriate as a father. One of the commenters says, "It's not how you start, it's how you finish". Past is past. Let's turn to the other side of the leaves, shall we? Have a nice week~ toodles ;D