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Al-Baqarah 2:45

2008-05-19

jumpe kekasih lame di pilah..

jmpe kekasih lame. luka lama bdarah kmbali. =P lepas dah clash tim taun 2006 tu. tiap2 tahun dtg lawat die. n taun dpt lawat lg. wee~ sgt seronok.

dah lame plan nk g. dr musim exam lg. n then dgr2 dr org yg kekasih lamaku dah smakin kacak. yelah, nk jd penganjur ptndgn, mstilah kena jg penampilan. tol x? plan ngn nana nk g. btape sir xbg pegi, tp bile me ngn nana dh nekad jgak nk pegi. pegi jgak. main redah jek. pagi khamis. nek airbus kt lapangan dpn kolej, pstu submarine dr pelabuhan kt uk, pstu nek airbus lak g pilah. then naik beca g pitstop yg last. huih.byk tol transpot. but time nk tunggu airbus nk g pilah tu, g bli bekalan utk supper mlm tu. dunkin donut! hee.. bli yg 16 free 8. smpi pning nk pilih perisa kn, nana? hee~ odw 2 mmg debar2. yelah sir xbg pegi. sbb cm da lwt da. sham yg nk dtg ari ahd pun xle. efa yg da siap bli tiket pun sir x consider. tp xkire, nk g jgk, ape nk jd2 jdlah. seb bek xde pape jd bile smpi. sir kate. nape dtg lmbt2. lain kali dtgla awl2. tp nk wat cmne. ade kls. nana lak ade baksis. urm. tolak kul brape ek. 9++. then smpi kul 1200++. wah.. btolla diorg kate, makin kacak kekasih lamaku, kmns..sbb nak kakom, astaka ade.. atap minangkabau, ade.. ape tu, dataran perdana? n then pdg tgh renovate.. ape lg bru ek? x igt.. hee~

tp sonok wlupun dgn mcm2 yg blaku tu kn.. dpt jmpe kwn2 lame.. kcau2 dan, din, zim.. merase ade kuasa. wlupun bpure2 je kn.. yelah kate pelawat..

yg xle thn tu. ckp kat dan. t jmpe jgn tkjut. bdn dh naik. n the first word yg kuar dr mulut die ble jmpe is GEMUK! uih..xblh thn.. n bg yg bru jd fc sesi ni, sori la x igt name, xknl2. cm ade gul dr batch ku je tim tu. due org. tp.. cm dah lain jek. huhu.

urm..smpi2 jek ade org 2ggu kat gate. robe n tasnim. cm vip jek. dahla msuk curi2. tnpa kbnrn sir. kt foyer ade muaz. die tlg anta smpi blok a4. tim jmpe dan dan bising tnye sir da tau lum? n then die kate len kali jgn cal dlu. dtg jek. klu da dtg die bkn blh wat pape pun. xkan nk halau. tp klu die halau gak cmne? haa.. then zim bsg sbb dtg ari khms. die kate dh tmph kmpang utk ari rbu ptg. n he was lik 'mane de kompang tghari gni'. tp smpt knekan zim sbb mmg nmpk die dah mkin gelap. ayu kate zim dah ckp kat die dah. kak wani mesti kutuk aku punye. n mmg btul pun. rmai boys pkai bju fc yg kaler putih tu. n lps zohor lpak2 kt foyer jp. jmpe abg afiq. then sorg2 boys dtg. akmal. then suddenly c udean tu g sergah lak. serius tkejut..owh.. korg bpakat.. xpe2.. udean bsg nape xgtau nk dtg. klu x, le jmpt kt pilah tu. xla kne bayor 5 hinggit utk taxi. xpelah yek. ade ke tuntut kfc. sape utang sape snanye nih..? n then sorg2 dtg..borak2.. sonok diorg knekan nana. then cm meeting other fc.. dat nite jd fatin nye bodyguard. mule2 upah sejam rm5. n then up kan jd sejam rm100. atin, bile nk byr utang..? =P

friday, urm.. nothing much i guess. being fatin bodyguard. dan kate i look lik a doc. sbb others wearing coklat vest but i wear a black one. n s if fatin is my patient. harhar. jeles tol ngn fatin. ramai tol fc kenal die. femes tol. but then smpt kenenkan ngn zim. hahah. nkl kn. mlm tu operasi memberi u pack kt student yg nk. haru biru dsbbkn ksilapan ku. 2 hari je ku dh wat silap. but then dat nite mmg cm xde mud sgt. sbb cm sumting happened. n tah. tp tim u pack tu sgt kecoh lah. cm psr jek. xpelah. dh nk abs dh pun. so evrybody was like lega jek. so kuarla prgai gila2 msg2. n zim asek touching jek. uih. kwn ngn ayu jd makin sensitip ni. ape ni ayu. seronoknye knekan zim. urm. ade tim tu blackout kejap. then cm wat teropong tgk zim. xde niat pun nk wat die trase. sbnrnye i mean lik glp so leh skodeng zim. tp die trase. touching2. n then tnye ayu die ckp ngn sape. knn xnmpkla zim yg sdg ckp ngn ayu tu. n bile udean dtg dpn, borak2 ngn die bese jek. bile lmpu da ade blk, ckp kt ayu, ayu ckp ngn zim upenye. then ckp kt zim, zim akk xnmpk tp udean akak nmpk. zim pn mcm eh c udean tu 3 kali gnda drpd saya tau. hahah. lawak2. n its funny watching udean is very smgt of stapling those papers. ade ke word stapling? balun jek. n then aslam x abis2 dok kire duit. hahah. bbq, xde mud nk mkn. mkn aym sketul. borak2 ngn hanim, umi, zahid. hotdog tu bg kt umi. x larat nk abs kan. hahah. then blk siap2 nk tdo. try to fix those unfixed stuff. but it end up being even worse. loser me. its just dat im not feeling gud dat nite. im like worrying about i dont know what. zim says dat i dont look s happy s i am during pdt last tim. am i?

saturday. hav a visit at fatin's. c some of her pics. n hav bfast. n take pics. n then hav a short chat wif hazim. n then go to pilah. buy new tudung. hahah. mummy, i also bought big tudung. very teruja. hee~ then go to terminal 1. left bag there. if they said sooner going to sban parade, i will not leave my bag at terminal. need to pusing jauh to get the bag n then go to ktm blk. but then blk ngn mal n bulat. so they teman me to t1 n then go ktm station back. sonok. mal ckp kt bulat. kite ni cm bodyguard jek. jln pndg kiri knn. eyh, mmg pn mcm. knela jg akk ni. oklah tu. bulat cm tinggi2 bsr2. mal cm muke grg. xdela org nk kcau akk. hee~. tq. but then go sban parade n eat eat. n then they go for a bowl. i dont bowl. thinking dat if i bowl i will reach home at night. but just watch. aina.. aina.. ganas tol.. sorry udean,muiz, zim. x dpt jmpe secara dua hala 4 de last tim n say gudbye.

smpi sbg jy at 630++. n then home sweet home. guess dats all about meeting my ex at pilah.. c u again kmns. but dono when. pdt? c de date first. c who's going. mal n bulat is going perhaps.

sori n tq 4 evrything guys. 2++ days pn mcm2 happen.

Kdg2 kn. bile kite baik wif sumwon. cm slalu hang out together evntho just for few days. then when msg2 blk to life msg2 u tend to cm less cntct each other. samada purposely or without purpose. i mean lik ur bz so u dnt hav tim to cntct each other or u dont wanna cntct each other coz ur lik trying to elak from each other. only u kno the reasons la kan. so, when u meet up. like msg2 tau akn meet up. but tau from others la. so, when u meet up its lik there's nothing happened. both of u bcome baik lik dlu blk. kdg2 if there's a chance both of stil hangout together. talking about nothing. bullying each other. where else ade 'sumting' 2. i dont kno. bile one of u says dat nk krg baik cm tim b4 pdt tu. n then u tend not to msg each other. n dats y when u went for pst dis year, u didnt msg him to tell dat ur coming. bcoz mcm sgan sgt. then bile ade chance to hang out again tim dis pst, u dont have the guts to talk about what u wanted to talk about. dah susun ayt. tp xtau cmne nk stat. sbb cm tkut another person tu mrh sbb ur lik mengungkit ksh silam. n skang jd cmni. pinocchio, i already have sumwon. n loved him. so i cnt msg u de way we used to. just like the time i dont hav dat sumwon. n dlu, pinocchio jgak yg kate xnk serapat tim pdt dah. tp ble dtg blk pst ni. ok, klu jmpe borak2. i dont mind. tp klu msg nk pun just spnjg prog tu. tp lps prog tu, i cant. i hav other comitment. yet we r stil friends, kn? its just dat i want u to know dat i alredy have sumwon n i loved him. i dont wanna hurt n b hurt anymore. its hurting inside when u know that ur hurting sumwon else. i already had enough of this.

n sbb g kmns ni im lik jrg msg dgn din. kasihan die. cm rs sgt worried wif him. i dont know y. sbb die citer he's going where n not telling me y. n rs cm sdp ati. sbb 2 kot cm xbrape sgt. mlm jmaat i cried so hard. tah. cal aiz. n tim to the tears r flowing. he's worried about me. n he's stil worried. its just dat i dont kno.

urm. ok then.

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