My fear. Stress.

Salam,

When people asked me on how do I manage stress, honestly saying, I don't. I'm bad at it. Lately, I get worried easily. I know, over-think about something unmanageable is bad. I mean, if I think to much, but I end up cannot do anything about it, why should I waste my time thinking, or worrying? Yet, I cannot get stressed out. Cause I'll end up making my body to be sick, unintentionally. I mean, it just happens, even though I eat well. 

One thing worries me. Afiq told me that, depression is serious. At first, it's just depression, and then, the patient will starts to have hallucination, schizophrenia, and last, end up in a psy ward. Worst comes to worst, suicide. But in Islam, if one suicides, the suicide will keep repeating in hell. *correct me if I'm wrong* And a psy report is a lifetime. I mean, it can effect one's career, life. It's just that, sometimes, I think that I'm still depressed. But I cannot be depressed. If not, I'll be sick. I'm stressed because cannot be stress. 

And I know, the best way is to get myself nearer to Allah s.w.t. 

What I used to do, is to write, or share my fears. But if by sharing my fears makes people misunderstood me, saying I'm acting like an angel, where else I know I'm not, I guess, I should never open myself up again, don't I?

Yours sincerely,
Nor Alwani Binti Amran.

 

 "The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything they have."