Stranded in office haha

Assalamualaikum,

Right now I'm stranded in office. Everybody else have left as it's Fridayyyy so kena balik cepat.

Sitting alone here, it's killing me. How much so many things hurts me inside. Betul, kena bersangka baik. Mesti ada hikmah kenapa semua jadi.

Yet it still hurt. And I know how crazy I can be when I'm so upset.

LIke few months before I was so upset with my backup sebab dia nak cuti lama lama. Alasan 9 nov tu adik dia engage. Well, I'm getting married kot. And your sister is only engaged. Your sister and not you. I sopped myself from being upset. But when a colleague brought it up, Why is she taking leave so long? And it's her sister yang nak engage. Bukan dia yang nak kahwin. I told myself, takpe. Cuti lepas kahwin lama. 3 hari extra. Keep it for study.

Like I want to tell kisah sekolah. Masa sekolah, kami berempat from same school masuk same SBP. Tapi different dorm. 2 of us sama la. I was quite close with only 2 of them. Yang lagi sorang kurang close. tapi sebab same organization masa sekolah, so we still getto work together. Now dah geng la. Sebab she's the type yang suka menyumbang experience and such. Then what happened was, we kept a promise, nanti kalau one of us kahwin, nanti yang lain akan jadi pengapit. So macam the last one kahwin kena cari orang lain la kan. You know, when you've been so long in falling in love, breaking apart, and falling in love again thingy, when there's one time you finally get to settle down, it was an awesomely heaven happiness. Then you wanted to share with everyone around you, trying not to miss out any single person. So I told them I'm getting married. Y was sooo happy. And excited. And keep asking when so that she can come. Even she wanted to come on engagement but she's having some difficulties in her studies that won't let her to come and join the event. But from Z, I dunno, maybe she does feels happy for me. And I asked, can one of you become my bridesmaid, both said no. I understood if Y, her concern is more on, if she promise and not yet settle with her studies, it will be hard on her. And risky as the preparations been made-clothes and stuff but couldn't make it. But as Z, I dunno. But we promised. I was so upset. And as Z's parents lives nearby, and as she comes back home every weekend,  I told her, so you can tag along when I don some shopping. She asked in return, what for? What will you feel? Y gave me some good news earlier this week. She's finally a dentist. Finished her tesis. Going to graduate angkat sumpah end of Nov and the best part is... She's coming to my wedding! I'm so overwhelmed! Z really upsets me. last few weeks, she told me she couldn't make it as her father wants to go back to Penang. Macam, I tried to give many options so that she could come walaupun just the rehearsal on Friday Pm but yet... Still a NO. Yet, she manages to go to a wedding of a friend of ours in Perak like in August. Mother says, both of us are drifted already. And let go. Mother, it hurts.

But Alhamdulillah, Y can come and it does excites me. I hope Y's turn will come soon. May she found the right person for her.

You know what, I have so many amazing people helping for my wedding.

Mummy and daddy expecially.
Some girls for my protocol agents.
a friend doing my guestbook.
a girl sewing my protocol agent's dresses
a junior as MC and he helped to find some kompang people also.


And I have some friends and sisters wanting to see me but I dunno when.

How I wish there's 10 of me so that I can please their request.

Organizing a wedding is tiring. But it's a once in a lifetime event that I won't forget.

Toodles~
=)

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